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Chapter Fifteen - Horrible Mess

Dans POV

"What do you want..." she mumbles sleepily.

"Em talk to me please" I pull my arm away from her and prop myself up using my elbow.

She untangles her legs from mine and rolls over. "What" she keeps her eyes closed and she doesn't sound very happy.

"Are we okay?" I ask nervously.

Emily opens her eyes and looks into mine. She studies me for what feels like forever before she responds.

"No I don't think so..."

"What do you mean you don't think so?"

"Well I mean... we're okay, as friends Dan. Because we'll always be okay as friends. But I don't know how things are concerning anything else at the minute"

"Emily I swear I'm so sorry. If I'd known you were going to be there then I'd never have done that!"

"Oh right" she sits up.

Shit. Wrong choice of words.

"So if I wasn't there you wouldn't have felt any guilt whatsoever?"

Reeeallyyyyyy wrong choice of words.

"That's not what I meant!"

"Listen to me, I'm not annoyed at you for just getting with a girl Dan, because as far as it goes, there's nothing happening between us. Yes you kissed me, more than once. Yes I admitted to liking you. But we're not an item Dan, so kiss who you want. But don't kiss me and tell me you like me before you do it, keep your feelings to yourself in future and we'll be just dandy"

I blink a few times. "But then, why did you let me in here last night if you're so pissed at me?"

"Because Daniel. I was drunk, upset and exhausted. Believe it or not, even when you're the one that makes me miserable, I still want you to make me feel better. Shit one for me, right?" she gets out of the bed.

"Please don't speak to me for now, because I really don't want to get anymore pissed off at you" she turns to walk out of the room.

"Emily wait!" I jump up and grab her hand. "I know I was a a drunk, horrible mess last night, I just want you to forgive me, please" I sigh and run my free hand through my hair nervously.

"I meant what I said last night Ems, no matter how drunk I was. I really do love you, not just as my best friend..."

She turns back to face me and grabs my other hand.

"Listen to me. I know how hard it must've been for you to say that, because I know what a nervous wreck you are all the time about absolutely everything"

I shuffle my feet uncomfortably.
She's right, I don't deal with nerves well.
I squeeze her hand.

"But Dan, please don't tell me you love me, at least not until I'm not fuming at you"

She gives me a quick peck on the cheek and walks out of the room, leaving me feeling more than a little devastated.