Mission: LOVE ⚔️ (mikasa x reader)

Plan with jean

"Morning Jean," you knocked on the boys door before opening it and looking at the boy who was lying dead asleep in his bed.

You keep forgetting that everyone in this damn place sleeps in until 8am while you were up at 6am. You wanted to talk to Jean before your meeting today, because you knew you don't talk to many scouts after then, considering you go to the meeting and they go to training and on missions to capture back the walls. So you had the option to either talk to him now, in the morning, or after dinner in the evening.

"Hey Jean!" You whispered again as you heard the boys breathing hitch as he heard your voice.

"Yo.. yo!" He said as his eyes adjusted to the darkness, him pulling his sheets more up so his body would be covered.

You didn't really care that he slept shirtless, but then again, why were you here? What exactly did you need to say to him?

"Sorry." You respond as the boy leant over his bed to grab a shirt and pull it over his head and onto his body properly.

"What're you doing?" He asked as he rubbed his eyes, turning on a small lamp he had next to his bed.

"Wanted to see you, I guess?" You said as the boy sat up properly, turning to the side of his bed.

"Come here." He said as he pat the empty part of his bed.

"Anything bothering you?" He asked as you sat next to him on the bed.

"So much is." You said trying to hold your emotions in to seem strong with Jean.

"It's going to be alright. Tell me what's wrong." He said kindly as you lean yourself towards his side, him wrapping his arm around your side to hold you as you rested your head against his shoulder.

"How do you deal with heartbreak?" You asked as the boy stayed quiet for a couple seconds.

"I shouldn't be asking you this, I'm sorry." You said as you lifted your head from his shoulder, him not letting you go.

"No it's fine. I was thinking about something to say." Jean said awkwardly as you sat next to him, being held by him but no longer having your head on his shoulder.

"You have to move on. That'd be my advice." He said with a smile.

"How does someone move on?" You asked quietly as the boy shrugged.

"Focus on other things you like. You like to read and write, I can remember that much." Jean said as you nodded. You did like reading and writing ever since you went to the 104th cadet core, though you could only talk about it, you weren't allowed to actually read or write back then, training was priority.

"I do like to read." You told him as he leant over his bed to grab out a book.

"This was Marcos old book. Kept it as a memory. You can read it if you'd like." He said as you held onto the book.

"Marco..." you whispered remembering the name from being one of the cadets at the 104th cadet core as well.

"You didn't really know him. He was my best friend. Then he died in one of the missions we were scouts together. You were at the military police by then, so you couldn't have known." He said as you gave a frown.

"I'm so sorry Jean." You hugged the boy as he hugged you back in sadness remembering the book and it's memories of Marco.

"Let's not turn this into a sap fest. I also remembered you liked talking about your problems, a lot actually. But you only opened up to the people you trusted." He said as you nodded.

"Yeah, well I do have a lot on my mind." You said as Jean put his hand on the top of your head.

"And you trust me, so why not tell me? I won't judge," he said as you nodded, grabbing his hand off of of your head.

"Jean I had feelings for Mikasa." You told him as his eyes widened.

"Oh... that's cool.. she's pretty," Jean tried to relate to you as you nodded.

"I saw her kissing Eren a couple days ago." You added as the boys eyes widened some more.

"Surprised?" You asked as the boy nodded without saying anything.

"Yeah well now I feel like garbage." You said truthfully.

"Why are you coming to me to ask for advice?" He asked as you sighed.

"I wanted to try to fuck around with you so Mikasa knows I'm not jealous of her, which I totally am." You told him as he sighed.

"I don't exactly want to be 'fucked around with', but I also want to help you." He suggested as you giggled.

"I sounded like such an asshole, telling myself I'd force myself to date you in order to get over Mikasa." You told Jean the truth.

"Getting a chance to date you would be wonderful, but If the feelings aren't there, they're not there." He shrugged as you nodded.

"I didn't want to toy with your feelings but I also just wanted to move on by occupying myself with someone else, Yknow?" You asked as the boy nodded.

"You can still occupy yourself with me, you just won't like me. And that's fine." He said as you smiled. "Maybe you will end up liking me... who knows?" He added.

"You're a really nice guy. I hope you know that Jean." You told the boy as you gave him a hug.

"Cmon!" He rolled his eyes with a blush before pushing you away in a joking tone.

"I've got a meeting to attend. You can get some more rest." You joked as you stood up from the boys bed, leaving before noticing a boy on a bed on the other end of the room.

You pointed to him in a confused way before turning to Jean.

"Yeah there's no chance Connie heard. He sleeps through earthquakes." Jean said as he waved you off, you still being a little concerned that Connie had been in that room the whole time sleeping.