Lover Next Door

Chapter 7

Thursday
I've been avoiding everyone. I just feel so confused with myself and I don't know what to do about it. I feel shitty about myself and I don't know why.

I'm the library and I hear my phone going off with notifications from the group chat, they're all talking about Miyeon's party. Some have been asking about me since I haven't been active in it, or meeting up with them after classes.
Since no one knows I come here and they don't even know where the library even is, I'm good for now

I'm not purposely trying to avoid my friends. Well I technically am, but not because I hate them or anything, I just want to be by myself right now. I try to stay here as late as possible that way I can avoid bumping into them, so far it's been working, my only problem is Jaehyun, since we live in the same building avoiding him is twice as hard.

I decide to check the group chat for a bit

Johnny
we allowed to bring drinks?
Mark
of course you think about that
Johnny
funny coming from you
Miyeon
yeah that's fine
Yuta
anything else you want us to bring?
Miyeon
no thanks, got it all taken care of
Jiyoung
have you guys seen or talked to yujin?
Mina
nope:(
Jaehyun
i'll see if i can talk to her later

I shut my phone off, maybe I should talk to them tomorrow, I feel bad.

A few hours later

I look out the window to see that it's getting darker and darker outside, I should go home. I grab my stuff and leave the library.

I should really stop walking home when it's dark, kinda scary not gonna lie

I finally make it, as I get off the elevator I make sure Jaehyun's not around, coast is clear. I quickly grab my keys and get inside. I managed to do it successfully. I can't keep doing that

I do my usual at home routine, when I get a notification, a text from Jiyoung

hey, where have you been? :(

hey, sorry. it's not you guys but i just needed for be alone for a bit. i'm okay, let's have lunch tomorrow?

glad you're okay, and of course. i'll talk to you later then<33

I feel like people tend to misunderstand Jiyoung as a careless party girl. The truth is she's noting but sweet and will do anything for the people she cares for.

I look at the time and realize it's time to go to bed. I lay down and stare at the ceiling, I'm not tired. I try to change into a more comfortable spot but it doesn't work.

I think for a moment, what should I do?

I look at my phone, should I do it? Fuck it. I grab it and begin to text

"you up?"

-A/N: kinda recommend playing the song here idk up to you😗-

I knock on the door. Almost immediately it opens and I'm let in.

"Where have you been?" Jaehyun asks
"Home"
"That's not what I mean" "You haven't been answering anyones calls or text, no one has seen you at school, I tried knocking on your door, what's going on?"

He looks worried,
"I've just been needing some space, that's all" I answer
"You could've at least told us that, we looked like fools worried about if something had happened to you"
"I'm sorry okay?"

"Anyways why'd you text me" he asks
"I can't sleep"
"Same here" "Wanna watch something? maybe that can help" he suggests
"Sure but you're picking this time" I say as I make my way to the couch
"Agreed" he laughs a bit

We watch what a movie he puts. I'm honestly not paying attention, I still don't really feel sleepy. I look at him, he's not really paying attention, he's on his phone.

"i probably should've left him alone and dealt with it myself"

Why do I always rethink everything? That's probably why I've been feeling like this

Later
It's 2am, we finished watching the movie. It didn't help though, I'm still very wide awake.

"Did it help you" he asks me as he turns off his tv
"Not really, you?"
"A bit" he says while yawning
"I should probably go back then" I say as I get up "Get some rest"

"Yujin"
"What?"
He steps in front of me
"What's wrong?"
"What do you mean?" I ask
"I know something is wrong, why don't you just tell me? Maybe I can help?" he looks at me

I look at him. He's here, in front of me. For some reason my head isn't spinning around anymore. I study him for a bit, not saying anything. He continues to look at me

"What is it that you need?" he asks again

At this point I can't anymore, I should just let loose.

I cup his face, and I purse my lips against his. I stay like this for a bit till I realize he isn't kissing me back.

I let go as I realize what I did, he looks shocked as it definitely caught him off guard.

"Oh my gosh Jaehyun I'm so sorry" I say as I back away a bit
He doesn't say anything. He continues to stare at me

"I should g-"

I'm interrupted by him grabbing me and pulling me back into a kiss, this time we both kiss back. I put my hands on the back of his neck as he slowly gets more aggressive, while still being gentle at the same time. He lifts me up and sits me on the counter, we continue as he keeps his hands on my waist. At this point we've both turned it into a whole make out session, but it seems like he wants more. I felt him slowly lift my shirt a bit as he now had his hands on my actual skin.

I don't want to, but you know I have to stop it.

I let go and pull back, he looks at me wondering why you stopped. I look at him completely shocked and what just happened

"What? Did I do something wrong?" he looks at me worried
"Jaehyun, you and me both know that shouldn't have happened"
He doesn't say anything
"I gotta go"

I leave before he can say anything else. I get back into my apartment and lean against the door

"what the hell just happened?"

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