Lover Next Door

Chapter 8

Friday

jiyoung! meet me in the library during lunch

where the hell is that at??

ARE YOU SERIOUS?!???

kidding💀💀i found it last week, it's pretty cool

meet me here then, i need to tell you something

yes ma'am👍👍

Later
Lunch break finally comes and I wait for Jiyoung to come into the library.

After a few minutes I see her wandering around the bookshelves. I quickly pull her by the arm and into a small spot where I make sure no one can hear us

"What dude?" she asks confused
"I did a bad thing" I quickly answer
"What?"
I don't say anything
"Okay, it's probably not that big of a deal, what did you do?"
I hesitate to tell her at first, I'm too scared for what her reaction will be
"Yujin? What did you do?"

"I kissed Jaehyun" I say quietly
Her eyes widen, you can tell she wasn't expecting this sort of news
"YOU KISSED JAE-" I quickly cover her mouth, hoping no one else heard
"What the fuck is wrong with you?!?" I whisper while yelling at her
"What's wrong with me? What the fuck is wrong with you, you kissed Jaehyun?!?" she whisper yells back

"I don't know why I did but it happened and now I don't know what to do"
"Have you talked to him about it?" she asks
I shake my head no
"Okay, have you talked to him at all today?"

Flashback to this morning

"I don't want to leave, but I have to go to school. No, I don't want to see him. I'm not ready to see or talk to him. This is all my fault I should've never kissed him. You're so pathetic Yujin"

I close my eyes as I take a deep breath, it'll be okay.

I open my door and close it right behind me, coincidentally he walks out too.

We stand right in front of each other, not saying anything but just staring at each other.

He wants to say something, but words won't come out, he just keeps on looking at me

"I can't do this"

I quickly leave and head towards the stairs instead of the elevator, no way am I going to be in there with him, at least not right now

"You're so stupid"

End of Flashback

"Oh my gosh, it really is bad" Jiyoung says astonished
I drop to the ground, feeling completely helpless. She then joins me and sits next to me

"Is he at least a good kisser?" she asks breaking the silence
"What?"
"I've always wondered if either of the guys were good kissers, especially him since he's always hooking up with different girls" she says
"You're no help" I cover my face between my knees

"Look, if we're going to be real, the most you can do is talk to him. Clear the atmosphere"
"Clear the atmosphere?"
"Yeah, just tell him it wasn't something you meant to do"
"Don't you think it would be too harsh to say that?"
"I've said that to guys before they turned out okay" she shrugs

I don't know how to feel, I don't want him to hate me, and can't keep avoiding him.
"It'll be okay, just talk to him" she says while rubbing my back "You don't have to do it immediately, but don't leave him hanging either" I nod, she's right.

"By the way Miyeon wants us all to meet up afterwards, don't know if you're still hiding from us but I figured you should know" she says as we both get up
"I'll come" I figured it's been enough time, nothing was resolved anyway.
"Okay, let's get you to class" she smiles

Later
I walk towards everyone, they're all there before me
"Yujin?" Johnny notices me first as everyone looks at me
"Hey" I simply say as I sit next to Jiyoung
"Where have you been?" Mark asks
"I needed some time alone, I should've told you guys I'm sorry"
"At least we know you're okay, but please do next time" Mina says hugging me

The rest of the time we're together we spend it talking about the party
"Hey is your friend still coming?" I ask Yuta
"Yeah, he's coming tomorrow and I'm gonna bring him to the party"
"That's cool"
I wonder what his friend is like, hopefully he's nice.

Even though we're all talking I feel like I'm being stared at, it's Jaehyun.
I still haven't talked to him, he looks at me, giving me soft eyes. I feel terrible for the silent treatment I'm giving him, but I don't know what to say to him yet.

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I walk home by myself, he stayed talking to the guys a while longer, I really wish nothing had happened last night.

I stop by the store to get food for dinner. While I'm walking past the aisles I accidentally bump into someone, everything I had in my hands fall.
"Crap, I'm really sorry" the person says
"It's okay" I pick up the things when I see the same person helping me as well, it's a guy.
"Here you go" he says with a small grin, he's really cute
"Thank you" I look at him, damn I feel myself blushing
"Have a goodnight" he says and leaves
"You too" I say quietly, doubt he heard it
I feel a smile forming around my face, that was a cute yet awkward interaction.

I make it to my apartment door and grab my keys
"Hey" I hear someone say, I feel my heart beating faster
"We don't have to talk about it, but just don't keep avoiding me forever" he says, his voice sounds really sad. I don't face him, I don't want to. I hear him open his door and close it, I really messed up.

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