Lover Next Door

Chapter 44

The next morning

I didn't sleep at all last night. I just cried, cried until i felt completely empty I couldn't do it anymore. It hurts a lot, it hurts so much I can't think of anything else to help me move on.

I had to stay in the other room with Jiyoung and Miyeon. I felt bad for leaving Mina alone but everyone knew I wasn't going to hold myself together being in the same room with Seola.

We're all getting ready to go back home. This trip drastically went downhill I can't wait to leave

After loading the car with our stuff everyone started to get in. I realized everyone in the back was in their seats from when we first made the trip. I then noticed Jaehyun was waiting for me to get in as well, meaning he thought we'd still sit together.

"Hey do you think we can switch seats?" I turn to Mark, who originally sat in the passenger seat
"Sure I guess" he says and gets in the back.

Jaehyun looks hurt....sucks

I get in as Johnny starts the car

"Let's go" he quietly says

Throughout the ride barely anyone says anything. It's a little more tense compared to when we first came. I'll admit I do feel like i'm partially to blame, it was just very inconvenient that all of it had to happen with everyone else around.

Most of the ride I found myself replaying the memory. I no longer want to cry, but I feel numb. I don't know whether to feel sad or mad, I'm a mess.

I take a look at the rear view mirror, I find myself taking a look at Jaehyun. He looks regretful, but I don't know.

He's looking in my direction, then makes eye contact through the mirror. We stay like this for a bit, even when he hurts me I can't hate him. I finally look away after what seemed like forever

Hours Later

Johnny was kind enough to drop us all off at our own places. I was tired, the lack of sleep was finally catching up to me

"Hey we're here" Johnny nudges me as we we're parked outside of my building

At this point he had dropped everyone off except Mark since they're roommates

As I get off I go to grab my stuff, which Jaehyun had grabbed first to hand out to me

"I can help you carry it if you want" he says
"No need, I got it" I don't even look him in the eye

"Thanks for the ride" I say to Johnny before I go inside, followed by Jaehyun

I get inside the elevator and he follows me. Right about now I'm really hating the fact that we're next door neighbors, he's just everywhere.

As soon as the elevator stops on our floor I don't hesitate to get off and get to my door

"Yujin" I hear him call out my name as I reach for my keys

"Whenever you're ready to talk, I'm here"

His voice was full of sadness, it breaks me

"I love you"

Love. That's what started this disaster

"Go home Jaehyun" I give him the cold shoulder before going inside my apartment

I want to hate him so badly, but I can't. I can feel the tears once again, I feel so pathetic

Why is this even happening?

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