Lover Next Door

Chapter 46

Friday

We all met up at our usual spot. This is the first time we meet up together since the trip and there's a sense of awkwardness amongst all of us. We all wait for someone to say something to at least start a conversation.

"Um...so how's everyone doing?" Taeyong asks attempting to break the silence
"Funny you of all people would ask that" Jaehyun scoffs
"I don't think you have room to speak" I spat
"Now you wanna talk to me" he mutters, despite being on the other side across from me I can hear him

"Okay! Both of you shut up" Jiyoung interrupts us

"Anyway, it's been a few days since we've done anything" Yuta starts, but immediately everyone's eyes turn to me

"Since it's friday why don't we go out to drink?" he suggests
"Count me out" I respond
"Cmon" Mina begs me
"No"

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"Chug chug chug!" everyone shouts as mark chugs his drink

I can't believe they actually convinced me to come, I'm an actual idiot

"What's wrong?" Jiyoung turns to me
"I should've stayed home"
"Well now you're here, so drink" she passes me a glass with beer

Might as well

Time goes by and I just sit and watch everyone. Everyone seems to be having a good time, except me. I should've stayed to be honest, I really don't feel up to do anything but keep to myself

"I'll be back" I say to Jiyoung as I go to the restroom

I take my time to reflect myself, I feel like shit. I wish I could just move on with my life

"Get a grip Yujin" I say to myself in the mirror

I should at least fake it for the rest of the night, I'm worried i'll kill everyone's mood. Even though I don't feel good that doesn't mean I should take everyone down with me

I was about to go back to the table, when I'm stopped by Jaehyun in the hallway of where the restrooms were

"Move" I simply say
"Can we talk?"
"I have nothing to say to you" I try to move past him
"But I do" he blocks me from moving

"I need you to understand that what happened on that trip isn't at all what you think"
"You're still on about this? I already told you that I don't care about your lame excuses"
"You don't understand-"
"I don't want to hear it" I cut him off

"Well then can you at least answer me this?"
"What?" I feel myself getting annoyed
"Are we still together?" he asks

I love him too much, but at the same time I hate him so much. I'm unsure on what I want with him at this point

"I don't know" I look down
"Do you want us to stop?" he asks

I feel him getting closer to me, he cups my face as his eyes focus on mine

"Do you want to put it to an end?"
"I don't-" I can't even finish my sentence without feeling myself getting nervous at his touch

"I miss you" his lips barley touching mine

I always fall for his gestures, it's so idiotic of me. But when it comes to him I can't ever think for myself

He finally goes in for a kiss. At first I don't respond, but I slowly give in. His kisses have always been so comforting to me. It's something that I never knew I needed till I actually experienced it. Somehow every time he kisses me it feels like it's the first time

He deepens the kiss. I'm supposed to hate him, but in this moment I can't help but want him more and more

"Yujin" I hear Jiyoung call from afar

I stop Jaehyun and push him away

"There you are! You've been gone for a minute I started to think you left" she approaches me

"Yeah sorry, there was a bit of a line so I just got out" I lie

She looks at us both, Jaehyun was clearing his throat and the other side of the hallway

"Was I interrupting anything?" she asks
"No let's go" I grab her and quickly rush back to our seats

"We're you guys doing anything?" she whispers at me
"What? no" I deny
"Don't lie"
"I'm not"

I grab the nearest bottle and pour the drink onto my glass

"What are you doing?" she asks
"Drinking obviously, just like everyone else"
"I'm just saying, earlier you didn't seem to want to even be here"
"Well now I do" I say as I gulp down the drink
"Dude slow down"
"Shut up"

"Oh you're asking to get drunk" she looks at me

That's sort of the plan

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