Hindi Tugma

Kabanata 5

Natapos ang klase na hindi man lang ako nakapagdaldal —I'm a talkative person but because of my bitches classmates that so annoying I stayed silent the whole time. History is one of my favorite subject but because of annoyance I found it boring this time.

"Hi Nathan! Hmm may kasama ka na ba sa project na pinagagawan ni Ma'am Faye?" Speaking of a bitch.

"Elisa I do-" di ko na natapos ang sasabihin ko dahil mabilis pa sa alas kwatro kung magsalita ang babaeng to.

"I can be your partner! If you want?" Masiglang sabi niya.

"Actually Elisa" tinignan ko muna yong katabi ko bago ko tinapos Ang sasabihin ko. "Partner na kami eh! Sorry hanap ka na lang ng iba!"

"Ako?" Gulat na sabi ni Timothy

"Oo diba napag usapan na natin!" Tinignan ko siya ng nagsusumamo na umoo na lamang siya.

"Ah! Oo nga pala pasensiya na may iniisip lang ako Tan!"

Thank God marunong makisama tong taong to.

"Ah ok! Thanks!" Sabi ni Elisa bago umalis na halata sa mukha ang paghihinayang.

"Thank you for saving me from that girl!"

"Bakit ba ayaw mo siyang kapartner?"

"No way in this earth I would like to be partnered with annoying girls! Girl shouldn't ask a boy, boynshould be the one who's asking them!"

"You're right! Sige punta pa ko sa library!"

"Sama ko! And anyway partner na tayo sa project kay Ma'am Faye ah?"

"Sure!" Ngumiti siya at ang ganda ng ngiti niya, pero bakit may kirot sa dibdib bakit parang ang sakit. "Are you ok Nathan?"

"Ah! Eh! Oo naman ok lang ako tara na sa library!"

Naglakad na kami papunta sa library nauuna siya sakin kaya malaya ko siyang napagmamasdan mula sa kanyang likuran —ang bawat galaw niya ay parang kilang kilala ko na hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit napaka pamilyar para sakin. Ang paglakad niya, ang pagiging tahimik niya at ang bawat ngiti na gawin niya tuwing may nakikita siyang kakilala niya. Lahat ng tungkol sa kanya ay parang napaka pamilyar sakin kahit pa alam kong ngayon ko lang siya nakilala.

"Ang dami palang nakakakilala sayo dito?"

"Not really! I just known here because of my background before I transfer here."

"What do you mean by that?"

"I'm from US studied at one of the most popular school there and passing the entrance exam here with perfect points!"

"Oh! You're smart pala!"

"Not really, sadyang advance lang sa US kaysa dito!"

"I thought people doesn't know you here since you're new like me and you're so silent! Naririnig lang kitang magsalita every class hour or whenever I talked you!"

"Minsan may mga tao talaga na gusto tahimik lang! Hindi naman mahalagang lagi ka na lang magsalita! Mag basa ka mas mabuti pa, may natutunan ka pa! Kaysa naman sa daldal ka ng daldal pagod na bunganga mo wala ka pang naiambag sa buhay mo kasi nakipagmaritesan ka lang naman!"

"You're so mean! But seriously how did Hindi Tugma caught your attention? Maraming hindi nakakaalam ng librong yun dito and knowing that you came from US nakakapagtaka lang na may libro kang ganon!"

"It came from my dad before my mom decided to bring us here leaving my dad alone in US even he's pretty sick that became the reason why he died!"

"I'm sorry! I shouldn't ask that!"

"It's fine you doesn't  know anyway"

"Can I ask what part of the story is your favorite?"

"I don't really know but I like the story very much! The way they fought for their love was so brave and wonderful!"

"What about their promise? Do you think there's a possibility of it happening?"

"Nathan if ever it will happen, they might end up hurting again! Dahil kahit kaylan hindi magiging tama ang mali!"

"But their love isn't wrong! Ang mali lang ay hindi sila tanggap ng lipunan kaya pilit silang pinaglayo!"

"Pero mali paring ipilit ang hindi tama! Mahal nga nila ang isa't isa pero hindi magiging sapat yun kung buong mundo na ang humahadlang sa kanila!"

"That's deep! Forget about it na nga!"

"Reality sometimes give the most pain Nathan so don't always base on what you heard or read! Aasa ka lang ng aasa kung patuloy kang babase sa mga naririnig at nababasa mo lang"

"Ok fine so can I ask again? Can we be friends since we're partners naman na sa project kay ma'am Faye why not be friends too right?"

"Bawasan mo lang kadaldalan mo then we're all goods!"

"So payag ka maging friends tayo?"

"Yeah!"

"Yey! Your my first college friend!"

"We're here na! Bawal na maingay dito sa Library kaya zip your mouth muna!"

"Ok! Let's talk about our project na lang in very low voice!"

"Sa weekend na lang matagal pa naman yan! Or bukas after class since last pasok na din bukas, magbasa na lang tayo at mag collect ng mga ideas na pwede sa project natin!"

"Ok if you say so!" Kalmadong sabi ko bago nauna na sa kanyang maglakad papunta sa mga bookshelves na kinalalagyan ng mga libro about history.

Like what he said, we both look for books that may help us on our project. We gather all the ideas we found on the book we read to help us analyze what kind of theme we will going to do for our project. It took almost an hour before we decided to go back to our classroom for the next subject —we both keep silent like we always do inside the class but the feeling I have in my chest still giving me a hard time to even start a little conversation with him about our projects.

"This is not you Nathan collect yourself good damn pretty man!" Inis na asik ko sa sarili ko habang hindi parin mapakali sa nararamdaman ko.

It bothers me so much since this is the first time I felt this kind of feelings for someone I've just known. After my last relationship which is actually a very traumatic experience I promise to myself not to feel romantic feelings for someone again but them what is happening now —how could I suddenly have this feelings for him or I am just hallucinating and thinking things otherwise. Argh this is really giving me a hard time! Damn it!