Tween Idle

August 24, 1998

Dear diary,

I MET A BOY!! But I'm getting way ahead of myself here. Lets start from the very begining. My day was both bad and good. One good thing is I am now officialy a sevvie (slang for 7th grader) and honestly I feel old. This morning when I was getting ready for school my mom said "Have a great day sweetie" Seriously mom? Sweetie? Im not a freaking baby! I didnt make any new friends today but I hope I do soon cause I only have one friend. Her name is May Jailer and she's been my BFF for as long as I can remember. We're kinda like the social rejects of the school but hopefully not for much longer! I walked to school with her today. So basically when May and I were walking to school I had my bra strap out (scandalous!) and I wanted to see if she noticed it. Our conversation went a little like this. "Notice anything different?" I said. "New shirt?" she said. "Nope" "New pants?" "Nope" "Well then what is it El?" (she calls me El or Ellie sometimes) And so I pointed to my bra strap. "I wear bras now" I said. "Wow youre lucky your mom buys you bras, I asked my mom to buy me some and she said to wait when Im older" she said. "May this could be our year, like we could become popular and get boyfriends or something" I said. "I dont realy want a boyfriend right now, boys are gross" said May.

No one noticed my bra strap. And I'm still mad about it. But my day got even worse when I was walking to class and bumped into the mean girl Sasha Fierce. She gave me a dirty look and said "Watch where youre going cunt" Im not sure what cunt means but I think its something bad. Then my day got even worser when I get freaking DRESS CODED. This stupid assistant principal with saggy boobs made me put a freaking hoodie on. And it was the ugliest hoodie I'd ever seen. SHE'S SUCH A B WORD! I was so mad and embarrassed. I was literaly on the verge of TEARS and I was trying not to cry in homeroom. I thought my day was ruined and wouldnt get any better, until the pep rally.

There was this REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY CUTE BOY ON THE FOOTBALL FIELD (I wish I didnt get dress coded so he couldve seen my bra strap) For some reason looking at him made me have to pee. His name is Matthew Harris...or should I say Mr. Heart? I think he's new this year. And when I say he's really hot YOU BETTER BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY HE'S REALLY HOT. (he also has a REALLY cute butt) So yeah I think I have a new crush. I began to daydream about him tongue kissing me and touching my boob. I also daydreamed about marrying him in the future and him having my babies. If only it were real. May, who was sitting next to me on the bleachers, tapped on my shoulder and said "Whatcha staring at?" "Nothing" I said.

By the time I got home from school all I could think of him. All day I daydreamed about me having big boobs and him touching my boob romanticly (If only it were real!) Anyways I'm going to bed. I can't wait to see him tomorrow. I hope I have a wet dream about him tonight!

P.S. I hope he's shirtless in the dream

P.P.S. I didn't have a wet dream last night sadly