Tween Idle

August 26, 1998

Dear diary,

NO BOOBS! Maybe I have to wait a few days. I hope I dont have to wait too much longer. Also I have a new favorite word. Blow job! Its so fun to say. Blow job blow job blow job. I could say it all day! Its like slang. Yesterday I heard someone say it and I asked an 8th grader what it means and he told me its another way of saying good job. So whenever someone does a good job I'll tell them they did a blow job.

Anyways today when I got to school I saw Matthew talking to his friend Calvin (I think thats his name) and a couple of other kids. I wanted to talk to Matthew SO BAD but Im TOO DAM SHY! Also he's a cool kid so he probably dosent wanna talk to losers like me. So instead of talking to him Im gonna stalk him like in the movies y'know? (Maybe one day I'll ask him out Im just not ready yet) And so I stood there and stared at him while he was talking to his friends. I mostly stared at his butt, as usual. Then he waved bye to his friends and walked over to a piece of paper on the wall. Then he wrote something on it. I couldnt see what was on it since I was so far away and I had to wait for him to leave so I could go over and see what was on it.

When he left I went over to the paper. It was auditions for a musical! The musical is called "someone else's heart" and the poster had a shadow of a boy and a girl looking at each other romanticly. Matthew had signed his name along with some other people. (If only he was signing marrige papers!) And guess what? It was a romance musical! I read about all the characters and stuff. The main character was called Julie and the love interest was called Prince Ron. Which meant if I auditioned for it and I got Julie and he got Ron we'd get to be romantic with each other (I hope there's a kiss scene!) This was my chance to get with him! But the thing is Im too scared to audition by myself. I'll ask May to audition with me for support.

Just then May walked up to me. I turned to her and told her about the play and why I wanted to audition. "No thanks plays aren't really my thing" she said. "Oh come on I need you to be my wingwoman" I said. "Wait what if you dont get the starring role? And what if Matthew doesnt get the love interest?" she said. "How do you know I wont get the starring role?" I said. "How do you know you WILL get the starring role?" she said. After a lot of convincing I finaly got her to write her name on the paper with me. I wrote a heart next to my name like I always do. May always writes in cursive. Personaly I dont see the point. Auditions are tommorow after school. We have to recite a poem and sing a song. Im gonna write my own poem (cause Im actualy a really good poet and write poetry all the time) and sing the song that goes like "Im a barbie girl in a barbie world" which is my favorite song. I hope me, May and Matthew get in the play! (Im only doing it for you know who) Anyways Im gonna go to bed now. Tommorow I'll let you know how my audition went.