Tween Idle

August 27, 1998

Dear diary,

Today was audition day. This is the poem I wrote for my audition. It's called Crush and its about my crush on Matthew.

When a boy makes you blush
Thats when you know its a crush
You are so in love with him
You would do anything for him
I wish that I could talk to him
I wish that I could walk with him
I know that he is my true love
We are two turtle doves
I love his hair I love his pants
And I just wanna hold his hand
I love everything about him
If only I could talk to him
Someday Im gonna make my move
But Im too scared to make a move
He is the perfect boy for me
And his wife I'd like to be

Now Im gonna tell you how my audition went. Today I had a hard time focusing at school because I was too busy thinking about the play (and Matthew of course) After school we all lined up by the door to the drama room. May was in front of me and Matthew was farther up in the line. I stated at Matthew the whole time as the line was moving (mostly at his butt) When it was May's turn I told her "YOU'LL DO A BLOW JOB" and she looked at me wierd but smiled. When her audition was over it was my turn. When she walked out she told me "Good luck El" I walked into the room looking confident cause maybe if I look confident they'll wanna pick me. The theater teacher was there with 2 other judges. "Why hello there young lady, can I have your name please?" said Mr. Atwood. "Electra Heart, whats yours?" I said as I gave him my audition sheet. "Oh I'm Mr. Atwood, I run the theater department here at Shellfish Beach Middle School"

Then he told me to recite my poem and I did. I was dramatic about it so that they would pick me. I also told them I wrote it myself because it'll make them wanna pick me for being creative. After that they told me to sing. One thing about me is Im actually a really good singer and can sing really good. I even told them that. I can do vebrato and belt my notes and I practice all the time at home (sometimes my stupid mom barges in and I have to yell at her to get out) May and I sing together a lot and she's also a decent singer. She also beatboxes and she's realy good at it. I hope Im in choir next semester. I just know that someday I'll be a famous singer. When I sang my song I did vebrato and belted my notes so that they heard how good I sounded and would pick me. I wouldve sung more but they stopped me. RUDE! "Thank you thats all I need, the cast list will be up tomorrow" said Mr. Atwood. And that was it. It was a pretty short audition. Unfortunatly I have to wait until tommorow to see the cast list. What if May was right and I dont get the starring role? I think I will though becuse I wrote my own poem and sing really good. Im writing this at night becuse I cant sleep. But my hand is getting tired so Im gonna stop writing now.