Tween Idle

September 9, 1998

Dear diary,

Im not mad at my mom anymore! She made me pancakes (my favorite) for breakfast and I wore the shirt to school. But guess what? I LOST THE STUPID POTION!! AND JUST WHEN I FINALLY HAD ALL THE INGREDIENTS! So basicaly today during gym when Matthew wasnt looking I pulled a piece of hair off his shirt. I know it sounds kinda weird, but love can make you do crazy things. After that I went to the girls locker room, being careful not to drop the piece of hair. I went in the bathroom stall and made sure the door was locked. First I licked the piece of hair cuse I've always wanted to lick his hair. I couldnt belive it. I was actually holding a piece of and licking Matthew's hair! Then I took the jar out of my backpack. And so I put the piece of hair in the jar. I didnt have a spoon to mix it so I used my finger. The potion was finished! Then I put the jar in my backpack for later.

But guess what? I LOST IT AT SCHOOL! Oh god what if someone else has it? What if they give it to Matthew and what if he falls in love with them instead? It seems like something Sugar would do. Then I began to worry. What if Sugar DOES have it? Maybe THATS why Matthew didnt notice my shirt at school today.

Anyways after school May came over. She showed me the story she's been working on. Basicaly its about this half human half mermaid named Valentina Stars whose torn between her human dad (whose a sailor) and her mermaid mom. I think its about her life cause her parents are fighting all the time. I can kinda relate to her cause my dad left when I was young. Sometimes when I go to her house I can hear them arguing really loudly. Its scary for both of us to hear. I feel really bad for her. She has to deal with that like everyday. I wish I could get out of there. Sometimes she tells me she wishes she can run away and live with sirens and mermaids who will protect her.

Oh and I completely forget. Tommorow is picture day! I have to look my best. And so I picked out my outfit. A red headband with a bow, a blue shirt and light blue denim jeans. I hope Matthew notices my outfit!