Tween Idle

September 28, 1998

Dear diary,

THE FREAKING PLAY IS THIS THURSDAY, FRIDAY AND SATURDAY. I didnt know it would come that fast. All I could think of all day was Matthew. Matthew, matthew, matthew. If someone made a song that was just the word Matthew, I would listen to it all day long. I also tried on one of Sugar's dresses during rehersal (just to try it on) when I thought no one was looking, but Sugar and her friends saw and yelled at me. I WAS JUST TRYING IT ON!

In language arts, my teacher Mrs. Dubois told us we were writing stories. And you know what I wrote about? I wrote a romance about me and Matthew but I changed our names. I was Ell and he was Matt. And in science, my teacher Mr. Martinez taught us about reproduction. I wanna reproduce with Matthew. Then in art, my teacher Mr. Harper was teaching us how to draw people. And so I drew a couple kissing and pretended it was me and Matthew.

I wonder if him and Sugar are still gonna be dating after the play. But you know what? Im feeling nice this week. Im gonna start being nice to everyone, even people I hate. Cause being nice is how you get the guy. If Sugar or her friends say anything mean, I'm just gonna brush it off. Because they might be going through something too. Mimi did say Bianca was going through some stuff. So Im gonna be nice to her. After all, you catch more flies with honey than vinegar.