Finally

Blissful Nightmare

Larry's POV:

I watched as everything crumbled around me in shattered pieces.

The blissful thoughts of my precious mate turned into a hauntingly slow torturous nightmares.

My pups and I haven't slept more than an hour or two a night.

I'm constantly moving from town to town, never stopping in a large city or a small town that is surrounded by forest.

Day after day I felt more and more drained.

Week after week I became a lifeless soul barley surviving shell of myself. If it weren't for my pups I probably would have wasted away by now.

I need to keep them safe from everyone and everything.

I do not trust those in Laurent's pack anymore. I also do not trust the remaining council members or even the Royals.

True the Royals never mistreated me or my pups but their whispering when every they were in a room didn't make me feel secure enough to stay in a pack I didn't feel safe any longer.

As I parked in front the small out dated motel I sighed, turned off my car and took my pups out their car seats.

After checking in, and entering the dirty room i sighed.

'Is this our life now'? I muttered to Blaze.

Walking around the motel room I felt a sudden sharp pain in my heart.

'Mate'. Blaze whispered out.

After hearing mate I froze in the motel room unable to move. I felt numb except the sharp pain I kept feeling in my heart.

A piercing pain that me to my knees and blew the air out my lungs.

'What's wrong with mate'? I whimpered out trying not to startle my pups.

'Mate'. Blaze repeated, and then retreated to the back of my mind, answering me.

About five to ten minutes more the sharp pain suddenly disappeared. It took a few deep breaths for me to be able to stand.

After I changed my pups and fed them, I placed them on the motel bed and sat on the small sofa next to the bed and watched as they tried to sleep.

I stood up immediately trying to fight the exhaustion, unfortunately a wave of nausea hit me hard causing me to sit back on the small sofa.

I'm sure my exhaustion and the lack of food is what brought the sudden nauseous and anxiety. Before I knew it I fallen asleep and was in another nightmare.

My blissful nightmare of my precious Laurent. My perfectly imperfect mate. My Alpha...

My heart hurt as I watched the Laurent and I's happiness like a movie reel playing on a big screen. I watched as my beautiful mate played with our pups as he held me close to his side.

I watch as memory after memory changed from our blissful happiness to a hellish nightmare after torturous nightmare.

A blood curdling scream brought me out my nightmare. Instantly my walls were up, blocking mine and my pups scent, just in case other werewolves or other supernatural creatures were in the area.

Cautiously I walked towards the motel door to hear what was going on outside, and smell to make whomever it is, is human.

I glanced back at my pups still sleeping on the bed, I opened the motel door cracking it just enough for a child sized finger to slip through the crack, listening and smelling.

To my surprise I only smelled human but also a slight metallic, copper smell.

Blood? I thought.

May be I should check out and find somewhere else to go. But I don't want to wake up pups it has been so long since they have slept for a few hours.

Will my pups and I be safe here for the night, or should I just check out and leave?

'Mate'. Blaze said again. I shook my head no.

'We cannot go back and you know it'. I told him a little too aggressively.

'Mate'. Blaze gritted out angrily this time. I just sighed and understood. I too want to be with my mate but until he wakes up whst go would it be for me to be in his pack with all the whispering?

My Laurent is in a deep sleep. So deep I can't feel his wolf or our bond. As soon as his family or even the remaining council members find out I am not sure what they would do to me our my pups.

Well actually I do. Laurent's family now knows that I have be hunted by not just hunters but also by also other supernatural creatures and they will most likely separate me from my pups and give me to either the hunters who want to dissect me or some powerful supernatural creature that would try to siphon out my essence to gain my special abilities then kill me.

No I couldn't return to BlackStone till and only till my mate wakes up and remembers me and our pups. Because I am certain that if we do not share a bond and he doesn't remember me he doesn't remember our pups.

I felt tears sliding down my cheeks. Afyer wiping then and continued to listen to the humans argue and a female screaming at the top of her lungs I closed and locked the motel room. Made sure to put a barrier up to prevent a breakin and crawled on the bed to my pups.

I watched my daughter cry in her sleep whispering papa. I knew she was dreaming of Laurent. She was Laurent's little princess and he made sure she knew she was. I cried silently watching my daughter laying between her brothers, them holding her proactively as she cried in her sleep.

The sight of her crying broke my heart. I shouldn't be causing her tears. I should be causing her, her happiness.

'Blaze can you reach out to Beast'? I whispered anxiously.

'I cannot feel mate'. Blaze replied. I sighed heartbrokenly as I thought of the sharp pain I felt not that long in my heart. If we can't feel our bond was the pain I felt not from Laurent?

Unanswered question after unanswered question ran through my mind. Unable to sleep I sat on the small sofa and took out the only memorabilia I have left of my pack.

It's a book of my family's bloodline and family tree that went back centuries. I read a few chapters in hopes to find comfort in the knowledge that my pups shared the bloodline of the rare white wolves.

Unfortunately the book only caused more heartache. Nothing I do recently has given me comfort except my pups.

I crawled back on the bed wrapped my pups in my arms, held them close to my cheat and struggled to find sleep.

'Laurent'. I whispered as I wait for sleep.

Thankfully it eventually came.