Finally

Need to Relax

Larry's POV:

"Come on Larry, you can't be serious"? "If you would just let me explain, you'll know everything I had learned and maybe then you will understand". Laurent asked, said.

Yea maybe if I wasn't such a hot tempered wolf right now I would understand, but I just don't want to listen to his explanation right now.

'After you were gone for weeks, yes I know it is for our family especially our pup's safety, but still you were gone for weeks, then you laughed at me'. 'And because I was upset with you, you came home right away and the first thing you do is try and ban an Alpha whom the Royals had come to our pack to help in this war'. 'You went at the Alpha wolf ablazing because he tranquilized me because I wouldn't shift and also I had no scent'. 'Don't get me wrong I love how protective you are of me and our family, and yea maybe I should have shifted but I wasn't in my normal wolf form and I didn't want to give anything away'. 'You are so overprotective that you didn't even give the poor Alpha a chance to explain without wanting to tear him apart'. 'If it wasn't for Jackson asking the Alpha what he had done, the poor Alpha would still think he was protecting our pack like the Royals had asked him to do'. 'So if anyone understands your need to protect it's me, but here right now after everything you're telling me you feel the need to protect this she-wolf'? 'A she-wolf you had never met before'. 'So please give me time Laurent'. I said, asked him closing and blocking our link.

'Mate love's us'. Blaze said whimpering in my head.

'I know Blaze, I know'. 'I'm just so overwhelmed right now'. 'I need time to process everything before I can sit down and meet this "she-wolf" our mate feels the need to protect'. I told Blaze firmly causing him to howl then whimper.

'Larry are you okay'? I heard Jackson ask. I nodded my head yes and started walking towards my pup's nursery.

'You sure'? 'I can feel rage rolling off you in waves'. Jackson said asked.

I stopped abruptly and took several deep breaths before talking to him.

'I'm upset, and overwhelmed'. 'My emotions are getting the better if me right now and I'm not sure why's. I told him calmly. Then continued.

'I spoke to the pack doctor and she said that she thinks it's because in less than a year I had given birth twice to two sets of triplets, and with everything that had happened in between both births'. 'She believes my hormones are not back to normal yet'. I told him taking another deep breath.

'I understand completely, Larry'. Jackson said nodding his head.

I know he's just saying that cause really how can anyone understand, when I can't myself?

'Larry how about we take the pup's to the park'? He asked. I thought about it and agreed. My poor pup's haven't left the pack grounds in weeks because of this dark witch and we were worried about their safety, but I can't keep them locked up and continue living in the unknown until who knows when.

'Yes, let's take them to the park'. 'You gather their guard's, while I gather their diaper bags and strollers'. I told him. I waited for him to say something or nod, after a few seconds he nodded leaving me outside my pup's nursery door.

After I walked in I gathered everything I needed for my pup's. I changed their diapers, and clothing and strapped them in their three seated strollers and waited for the guards and Jackson to return.

'Maybe fresh air and the walk will help calm you down'. Phoenix said. I didn't answer, but thought she was probably right. I had been on edge even before I had my second set of pup's and the mountain of stress doesn't seem to go away, it's just piling up higher. I sighed hoping a walk and letting my pup's play a little will help calm me down.

'Goddess please let this help'. I sent a silent prayer to our Moon Goddess, gathered my pup's things and left the packhouse as soon as Jackson and the guards were available.

The walk was peaceful and the air was nice and cool. A perfect early spring day, while we walked in silence, (more for the guards peace of mind, beings they have to keep their eyes and ears alert) a thought ran through my mind and instead of just continue on wondering I asked the question that I had wondered a few times before today, but more recently lately.

'Jackson are and Egon plan on having kids of your own some day's? I asked. My question caused Jackson to stop abruptly, his mouth left hanging opened. I giggled a little but quickly stopped when I noticed the hurt in his eyes.

'I'm sorry'. I whispered feeling guilty for asking the question.

After a few minutes or so, Jackson began walking without looking at me.

'I don't think Queen Jackson can have babies'. I heard Blaze say.

Guilt and pain stabbed at my heart for asking Jackson that question.

Once we made it to the park, I noticed Jackson walking alone with his head down.

Goddess.

'Miguel, you and the four guards please keep an eye on my pup's'. 'I'm going to go talk to Queen Jackson for a moment okay'. I told Miguel the head of my pup's security. After he nodded and then agreed I left my pup's in his and the other four guards care, so I can apologize to Jackson.

'Hey Jackson, please wait up'. I yelled out, jogging towards him. Jackson stopped and turned towards me. It appeared he was waiting for me.

The moment I reached him, I wrapped my arms around him and apologized over and over again, until he stopped me.

'Really Larry it's fine'. 'And to answer your question yes both Egon and I would love to have our own children, unfortunately neither one of us can carry them'. 'We would have to look into a human to carry them'. 'That is unless you want to carry them'. He said, laughing at the last part, causing me to laugh too.

'You know I would do anything for you two, but not that'. I told him still laughing a little.

'I know you would Larry, you truly are a good friend'. He told me hugging me again. I sighed happily for the first time in weeks.

"Larry can you please return to the packhouse"? Laurent asked through our link. I looked up at the sky and realized it was getting dark. I felt so relaxed time just flew by.

'We are heading back now'. I told him.

'Come on everyone, it's time to go home'. I said. Right on que with the mention of home my pup's began to cry, not because they don't want to go, but because they cannot go a day without seeing their father.

Just like the walk to the park, the walk home was just as quiet. The only difference was I was smiling, finally feeling relaxed.

'Thank you Moon Goddess'. I thanked her quietly walking to the packhouse.