Finally

I think I'm done

Larry's POV:

I felt an instant change in the packhouse almost as though something major must have happened, but I chose to ignore it and stay with my pup's in my room where we have been for the last few weeks.

It's been hard not seeing Laurent and Beast, even Alaric, but I felt like something is not right with them so I chose to distance myself just until I can figure that something out.

Yea I may be pi$$ed off at my mate because of his need to protect that she-wolf, but that doesn't mean I stopped caring, loving or worrying about him.

The cries from my pup's brought me out of my worrying thoughts. I sighed and got off the small couch and walked into their bedroom to find Miguel trying to calm them down.

'It's okay Miguel I got them'. I told him, walking towards my pup's. As soon as I reached them, their cries became silent.

My heart ached as I stared at my pup's tears streaked faces. I know they miss their daddy, I miss him too. I'm just to damn stubborn to allow myself to watch my mate hover some other wolf (female or male) like that wolf is more important than his family.

I feel drained, hurt and angry.

If it wasn't for my pup's and Jackson I most likely would have shifting into Phoenix and disappeared.

They keep me as one.

They keep me sane.

I sighed sadly wondering what or how Laurent has been doing.

Should I put my stubbornness aside and link him?

Or better yet go look for him?

Or maybe just wait for him to come to us first?

I sighed again not being able to think of an appropriate answer.

'Jackson where are you'? I linked Jackson. Whenever I have an issue Jackson seems to be able to help me figure out what is best. As I waited for him to link me back I changed and feed my pup's.

Still slightly upset, but smiling I gathered them in the stroller. I think we need park time. My pup's and I have been held up in my room since the last time we had gone to the park.

I know, I know it's not healthy. But I just couldn't deal with the fact that my mate seen some other wolf important.

Selfish I know...

As I waited to link me back I called Miguel into the pup's room to inform him I am heading to the park with my pup's and if he wanted to tag along or stay and have lunch with Maria.

'I'll tag along of course'. Those pup's are my responsibility'. Miguel said I chuckled at his words.

'Yes they are, but I am taking them to the park'. I told jokenly stern, causing him to chuckle.

A rushed knock was heard on the main door. Before I could say come in Jackson walked into the room.

'Jackson'. I called out.

'Yes'. He replied.

'I'm in the pup's room'. 'I'll be right out'. I called out to him.

'Okay'. I heard.

'Miguel can you finish gathering the pup's some lunch'? 'After I talk to Jackson we can head to the park'. 'Oh and if you want, you can ask Maria to tag along'. I asked, told him.

'Um, okay'. He managed to say, turning red. I chuckled at his flustered face as I walked out my pup's room.

'Jackson what took you soon long'? I asked faking annoyance.

'I was talking to Laurent in his office'. He replied not looking at me.

Pain struck my heart hearing Laurent's name. But I chose to ignore it.

'Oh okay, well Miguel and I are taking my pup's to the park'. 'We have couped up in this room for way too long'. I told him avoiding his eyes.

'Larry you need to talk to Laurent'. He said. My breath hitch in my throat and I felt faint. Why should I go seek out my mate and talk to him, when he cannot seem to find time to come seek me out and talk to me? I shook my head hard enough so Jackson can see.

I heard him sigh but I ignored it. Instead I asked if he was coming with us to the park, or staying at the packhouse?

'I'm staying here, Laurent needs help with some pack stuff's. He said. I nodded my head feeling hurt but wouldn't let him know it. I feel as though not only did I lose my mate, but I am also losing my best friend. But that's okay I have my pup's and not one will take them away from me not even their father. I gritted out in my mind.

I closed and locked my link so that when Jackson went back to Laurent's office, I didn't get a useless mind-link asking me why I'm leaving the pack grounds to go to the park, instead of just letting my pup's run around (those that can walk) the back of the packhouse.

'Larry you really need to talk to Laurent'. Jackson said again. I shook my head no and gathered one stroller with my pup's in it as Miguel gathered the other stroller and we walked out the room.

If Jackson wants to stay that's fine by me. But I refuse to stay couped up in this a second longer. My pup's and I need fresh air, and some time away from a packhouse that I no longer feel I want to be in.

Maybe I should just go back to the house. I mean Laurent wouldn't mind if I left. All he has been doing is hovering over that she-wolf and spending more and more time away from our pup's. Yea I told him not to come to our room, but he's the Alpha and our pup's father if he truly cared he would have just came anyway.

My heart felt like is was bleeding, heavily when reality hit me. My mate no longer wants us. I felt as though I failed my pup's.

'Luna are you okay'? I heard Miguel say. I nodded my head not wanting him to see the tears running down my face. I won't show weakness inside this house.

'I'm fine'. I said my voice cracking slightly. 'I think I'm going to go back to the house'. 'You can come or stay here it's up to you'. I told him slightly harsher than I intended.

'Do you need me to get the car's? He asked. I nodded my head not trusting my voice.

I stared at my six beautiful pup's strapped in their strollers waiting to go to the park and thought long and hard if leaving is for the best. Hearing a horn honk my thoughts were broken up before I decided what was best for my pup's and I. Yes I promised Laurent I would never leave him again, but does that mean I should stay and watch my mate happily carrying on with another wolf like I do not exist.

'Luna are you ready'? Miguel asked. I nodded my head realizing I had zoned out again. 'Thank you Miguel'. I told him and climbed into the car. Right now I think it is best if Laurent and I have some space from each other.

'Luna did you tell the Alpha'? Miguel asked me, I shook my head no. I heard him sigh as we drove out the packhouse grounds and headed towards the house.

'Luna are you and Alpha breaking up'? Miguel asked almost in a whisper. I shrugged my shoulders not knowing how to answer him. I love Laurent with every fiber of my three beings, but it seems as though my mate has found someone else he loves more than me.

I held back the tears that threatened to roll down my face and stared out the window.

'Everything will be fine once we get time apart'. I told him softly not trusting my voice.

'Okay'. Was his reply.

That's why I love Miguel. No matter the situation he doesn't push past my limits and is always by my side. True it is because of my pup's he is by my side, but still he is by my side.

I closed my eyes and prayed to the Moon Goddess.

'Please protect my mate and his pack'.