Autumn of May

CHAPTER 13: His Intentions

I slightly open my eyes. Napakabigat ng pakiramdam ko. Even my body feel so heavy, I force myself na bumangon. When my vision becomes clearer, I scan the whole place. Nasaan ako? I search for someone in the room pero walang tao. There is a glass window sa left side ng kwarto at isang maliit na cabinet sa gilid ng kama na hinihigaan ko. I touch my face and realized that there is an oxygen hose on my nose and my hands are connected to a dextrose.

Biglang bumukas ang pintuan at may pumasok na lalaki na hindi ko kilala. I've never seen him before. Ngumiti siya nang mapansin niya na nakaupo ako sa kama. Lumapit siya sa akin. He check the dextrose and adjusted the drip. "Nasaan ako? Anong nangyari? Bakit ako nandito?" He wrote down something on his notepad and grab a chair to sit down.

"How long have you been experiencing that symptoms?" He asked sincerely, so calm that he tried to smiled at me comfortably. He had that grayish hair, at ang kaniyang mga mata ay napakaganda. It seems like he has an American blood on him. "What symptoms? What do you mean?" He let out a sigh. Inilapag niya ang notepad niya sa mesa and crosses his legs.

"Miss, you have a heart illness. Have you never try to consult to a doctor? I expect that the symptoms are already visible for two weeks" sabi niya sa akin. I look away pagkatapos kong marinig ang mga salita na iyon. "I don't know how to say this to you, but you should seek for an immediate treatment" dagdag pa niyang sabi sa akin.

"I already did. But I think I won't do it" I said. There's a complete silence between us. I know that the patient is the utmost priority of the decision either she'll take the medications or not. Even though how much they wanted to save every patient in the world, the decision is still not they're control. "Okay then, as of now, you should take this medicines.." he slide his hands on his pocket and grab some pills.

Ibinigay niya ito sa akin. I accepted it kasi I don't want to look stubborn to him. "If you ever change your mind, just call me" Iniabot niya sa akin ang phone ko kaya tinanggap ko ito. "You drop this earlier in the Cafe when you passed out due to low SPO2 (Oxygen Level), luckily I was there" naaalala ko na nasa Cafe Pala ako kanina and yes, I did have that weird pain so I rushed to the comfort room.

I opened my phone and there is a new contact person added under the name "Kris". I look at him and smiled gently. "Thank you so much, Kris" Ngumiti lang siya sa akin at agad na tumayo. "You should rest for a while, you can check out from the hospital this afternoon. I need to check the other patients. See you....?" napahinto siya sa pagsasalita dahil hindi niya alam ang pangalan ko. Our encounter is so unexpected kaya we don't have that time to exchange our names.

"Gayle. Abbi Gayle" I replied to him. Ngumiti ulit siya and whispered, "Nice to meet you, Gayle" he remarked sabay sarado ng pintuan. I let out a sigh and lay down back on the bed. Kinuha ko ang binigay niyang water pills at tiningnan ito ng mabuti. Am I doing the right thing? Am I sure I won't regret on any of my decisions?

I remember that day when my mom was sick. I never had that idea because they never explained me the whole thing. Para sa kanila, it is way better for me not to know dahil malaki ang tiwala ni mama at nila Lola at Lolo na gagaling pa si Mom. My grandparents do anything to get my mom treated, kahit naubus na ang kanilang savings at nasanla na lahat ng kanilang mga lupain.

It is not easy for me to decide to get treatment because we can't financially afford to get surgeries. My savings are only enough to sustain my grandparents medication and for their daily needs. Considering to the fact that, it is not a hundred percent that I can survive. Ayokong ubusin ang natitirang bagay na meron sila. Hindi ko kaya na dadating ang araw na iiwan ko silang mababaon sa utang.

I can't afford telling Nikka too. Because I know she will do anything to get me treated kahit na magpalabas siya ng maraming pera. Nikka deserves to enjoy her own luxury and to have that happiness. I hate thinking that when she knew about my illness, maaaring magiging malungkot siya at lagi siyang mag-aalala sa aking karamdaman. I wanted them to live the way they are living now.