Ndrv3 Oneshots(NO SMUT)

Maybe I'm Losing Time Itself

Tsumugi Angst/self-projection onto a fictional character(short)

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Tsumugi's POV

"Maybe I'm losing myself," I whisper.

It's not okay. I know it isn't. I can't help myself. I'll get sucked into all these stupid things, and—.

I sighed, and grip at my oily blue hair. It's becoming downright shriveled from the lack of care its been receiving these past few weeks. I'm losing myself.  

I've always been good. I know I have. My report cards are straighter than I am, that's for sure. 

I got in trouble yesterday. I cried about it until early in the morning. I know I'm in college now. Things are changing. Danganronpa can't help me anymore.

3rd Person POV

Tsumugi writes on ao3 a lot, and sometimes neglects that she also has a wattpad account. Though it isn't the greatest, it's one of her first accomplishments as a person. The SHSL...no, just the Ultimate Cosplayer. She isn't any more than her Ultimate.

She's plain. She was nobody until she started pretending to enjoy weeby things, and got a little too good at it.

Her lies led her down this hole. A pre-carved path just for her. 

She hates it.

"I can be something better...." She whispers to herself every night.

What can she be? She doesn't know, because she isn't ambitious. Tsumugi used to have dreams. Not anymore.

In the most non-cliche way, her dreams were shattered the second she was publicly announced as the Ultimate Cosplayer.

Her achievements are what she is. Tsumugi Shirogane is nothing more. 

Danganronpa was one of her accomplishments upon many. When she brought the award of most interesting Danganronpa game home to her remaining family members(her, herself, and her), not even she was interested. In fact, she had stuffed it in a closet filled with dusty old awards that would never see the light of day.

Shuichi, Maki, and Himiko are long gone. They have their own lives. Well...take Shuichi for an example. He followed his goal of becoming a detective, as he wanted to even before the game.

However, Maki and Himiko chose different things.

Maki decided that she would be a spy for the government. Himiko chose to be a Pre-K teacher. She even had a growth spurt.

Sometimes, Tsumugi laughs to herself, and wonders how such a renowned woman such as herself could become so pitiful. It was hopeless. 

Despair and Hope were still heavily connected to Danganronpa. Either one of the words mentioned, and suddenly...

"Maybe it's time to give up...."

That is what Tsumugi Shirogane tells herself everyday.

She doesn't do it.

She is a coward.