Journal of an Empress

I will say no

Chapter 6

I had these crazy dreams last night. I can't really understand them all but the energies are really high. I had a wonderful day yesterday. I felt strong, beautiful and so in align with myself. My confidence boost has grown. A lot.

I have heard a lot about my DM that has made me really questioning an eventual choice if he shows up. It has never, for me been a question of me saying yes no matter what. I have just been so confused about his behavior due to the fact that I never saw it this much when we were together.I know that our bond in 5D is very strong but in 3D he just feels like an asshole, frankly. I can't see how he could step up and be the man I once connected with.

I can feel he is incoming but I can also feel the incoming energy from him. I am trying to just listen to my heart to feel it in but his behavior in 3D is making me a bit nervous cause I don't want him to enter my life in that energy. I might cut him to the ground, totally. All the things he does just makes me further more, away. 

I didn't think that I would say no to him some months ago but now, no doubt about it. I am not going into a relationship with someone that isn't in align with me. Never ever again. If someone should approach me it must be correct or I will be the runner. I will not allow any shitty behavior or egoistical shit.

I have worked hard of entering my Empress mode and I will not settle for the fruit on the ground. I am worthy of true, unconditional love that is given from a true heart and will not ever live with someone that doesn't live by the cups. So it is and so it will be if someone is arriving in my life. 

Love for me is more than roses, pretty words or flirty behavior that doesn't stay. I want intellectual communication, loving beliefs and kindness, emphatic behavior and true, honest love from a grown spiritual personal or I will just leave. THAT IS what I have learned.

I hope you have too. As a divine feminine I trust in the Divine to showing me the right path for me. I believe in them. Not anyone else.