Chapter 23
The picture I see in front of me is a naked tree with only one leaf falling. It is like the scene in the Beauty and the beast where the last petal of the rose is falling. I feel that the DM might no be able to be saved or not either understand how important it is for him to want to change and don't let the last petal to hit the ground. It is so cold and lonely when I look at the scene and I feel very sad for what I am seeing.
It is not that it impact my feelings of my own life. It just feels so sad. Cause for me the choice would have been so simple. Not a choice to choose him, it is not about that. It is about the choice of choosing love. I really had beliefs in him but even if I now and then when I am writing, loose hope, get hope, loose hope and are in kind of a loop in this believing-theme. It feels very, very distant that he will know what the right choice would be.
He is loosing people around him. They are like bricks he just throw away. It is all about him and nothing about others. Selfish. Immature. Egoistic. I have trouble understanding people behaving like that. I know we all have wounds that we have to heal inside and sometimes from past lives. I just have trouble of understanding why we continue to choose to let them block us, over and over again. I have had them. I won't lie. I have done a major journey myself and still are on it. But I learned early on in my life that the only choice that is important is love. Even though I have been hurt in the past and have misjudged others what they think is love I have learned to make myself count. I have really learned that love should be unconditional. Not judging and selfish.
Still the scene was really touching me. Cause it felt like I have failed. That I thought I could save him or more that our love would heal him but what I see makes me just disappointed that the faith in him was just a foolish thought. I am on the journey for my love and I am slowly cutting more and more cords even if I understand that this is not an easy task in a twin-flame journey but I am living my life. He an be there in the 5D but in 3D I don't have any needs to see him. What I see actually kind of make me sick. But it also makes me sad that I am the only one that think that he could make the right choice but it is getting harder.
I hope he will make it until the leaf touchs the ground. Or else, he will have a very, very cold future.
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Journal of an Empress
SpiritualThe journal of the roller coaster of being in a twinflame journey with a Divine Masculine that ran. The lessons. The blessings. The heartache. The silence. The non-spoken words. The telepathic communications. The longing. The possibilities. The ne...
