Journal of an Empress

Empress energy

Chapter two

I went for a walk outside this morning. It was a magical sunny morning. Beautiful.  Birds were singing  and I felt relieved. I felt free. I felt alive. I have got lots of moments of really feeling that I am blessed. 

Even if I was put out in the cold after the ghosting from my Twin, I knew, from the beginning, that our connection was something bigger. I couldn't put my finger on why but by a coincident I found out about the twin flames, Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine. I read a lot about the twin flame journey and had a great AHA moment. WOW with a big W. 

When me and my DM Divine Masculine)  crossed paths it was a true, magical,  soul recognition. Powerful as F-ck. I felt it enormously strong and I know he did too. When we made love it was like it was divinely connected and our souls met. Each time. We were together for years.  I also knew somehow that we were at different pages in life. I knew when we met that I had many more past lives than he. After a while I  also felt that he was the one that was immature in knowing how to live a life correct. A life should always be lived by the cups. Not pentacles and superficial shit. That is my opinion but I stay firm in it.  

When he ran, I knew already that he had invited a third party. He didn't know and still don't know that I know all about it. I felt it. Immediately in my soul even if my brain wanted to think otherwise. I have an extremely high intuition and it rarely fails. Unfortunately.  I knew that everything that happened before the ghosting made him fearful and scared. He changed long before he invited that third party. I said months before that I didn't want to live with a superficial man. Even if I felt so much love. The toxic had made him turn into someone that I didnt recoginize anymore. 

When I met my DM he was like sunshine, warm, loving and so, so beautiful IN his soul. Wherever he went he made people smile. He opened my heart and I every crack in me started to heal. I met my other half. That made me look at myself with both loving and learning eyes. Over time old habit that I never had seen he had and automatic behavior turned his path back into his old behavior. He changed in his values. I didn't. I knew when I met him what life was meant to be lived from. From heart. I was so much older in my spirit and soul so I knew somehow that we would have this separation. When I saw him change into someone else my soul knew from the moment he just closed me off that I wasnt meant to look back or chase. I just continue forward. Finding my souls purpose and my worth. It was devasted for my soul to see his souls flame, go out. He became a really egoistical, asshole in the 3D but in 5D he is still magical. 

I grew. So, so much and am so thankful. I  am in love with myself. I am such a warm, loving and kind spirit. This journey this far has been a blessing in finding the treasure within me, all the love and kindness that I carry and the strength that makes me choose myself. Over and over again. I will never chase someone that doesn't give me the whole cup of love. Makes me a priority and makes me feel appreciated. 

I don't carry any anger. I don't carry any pin-pointing fingers. I don't walk in his shoes. And I dont won't even want to try. The only thing I can say is that he will never, ever in his life have this kind of connection. How do I know it? Because I feel him on a deep higher level and knows that he knows. I know it. I have always known it. That is the painful part in it all.  I wish him the best in life even if that life will not be beside me. 

I am in my Empress energy. Feeling the love. Feeling the blessings and counting them all, every day. Felling the flow of abundance. I will not turn my love inside into hate, anger och fear. Never. I am here to love, myself and the ones that gives me love back. I am not hear to please others. I am here to please myself. To reach out to people that needs some love but also in knowing in whom I give it too. After all the Empress deserve the best, only the best .