Journal of an Empress

Leaving the scene

Chapter 29

It has been a burden to feel as if I was to heal this whole connection. I have known that it hasn't been my responsibility but nevertheless I have felt as it has been. I have grown a lot. Internally and externally. You have not in the 3D grown at all, as it looks. In 5D I have felt your presence. The other day you came and explained to me a lot. 

I have been trying to leave it all. Several times. Still the connection and the bond is hard to get away from. Sometimes a spell that has felt really dark to have on ones shoulder, sometimes this deep love that is aching in my heart. Now more or less, not anything that I want in my life. All that has happened has taught me whom I want to pursue or not. Whom is welcome or not. 

Someone that shows up for me, care for me and are my true counterpart in life is welcome. I will never thrust you DM again. I am sorry but you have totally went on a the wrong path and yes I really believed you could change. I really did. Even when I was together with you I still believed that love would conquer all your lame excuses and materialistic point of view of everything. Status. Money. Fake. Fake. Fake. I am real. You are not. Our connections is now ended. I will feel you , now and then. I know. I am not saying I am leaving because I understand in some way that the Universe has made this connection to happen and it will always exist in my soul.  But I am now choosing to just neglect it, grow more from it all I have learned and go for my destiny.

So what is it? My destiny? Well it is kind of simple.  To live by the cups, be honest and real and not close off for feelings. For love. Kindness. Generosity. To choose to be myself no matter what. Never to make someone's elses priorities above my health, spirituality, heart and soul. Always aiming for true unconditional love. It exist. I know it. It will arrive and it will make my heart glow again. It will also make me continue growing. Not loosing my spiritual power or happiness. Not loosing my hope and faith in Universe and in others. It will heal and feel as it supposed to. 

So my part in this soul contract has been paid. I know that the end is not for us to be together and that has free me from burdens. I know now that I have paid my debt and you will be pushing towards the towers to pay yours. You can try to resist as much you want but it ill always put you in them. 

I will cherish the years we had of pure love and kindness that I felt. I will aim for the stars and the moon now. Not for low hanging fruits or not ready cooked chicken. I will aim for what I deserve,  the best. Unconditional love. Ready. Set. Go.