Chapter 28
It has almost been a years since I began this journey, learnt about it and gone through it. I have learned so much about feelings on distance, connections that were at start very difficult to understand. A DM that has behaved like shit, a fucked-up asshole. In fact. I could never ever thought that he was like this at start, even if it through the years was been high-lightened several times that he was superficial and egoistical.
Now news has come about him falling apart.. Feeling shit .His body has started to say stop for all his shitty behavior towards it and also making him not being able to do anything he likes. His world will be even more thorn up as he will probably not understand why the towers are falling. Over him. To know is to learn. To learn is to know. About yourself and about treating others whom you love. No one escapes their destiny and no one escapes from bad behavior, if not in this life, the next life won't be a good one.
I am a bit shocked over all that happens right now. Having faith in myself and seeing myself being this confident woman that i never thought I would be. Even if I have flaws, I love them too. They are me. I will not chase anyone that doesn't appreciate me in having me in their life. I will not chase neither beg for attention or love anymore.
If someone makes me thrust, believe and love again they will have an Empress that will give from heart and soul. IF they give it back to me of course. I will never give if I will not get back. I still thinks about my DM but have started to learn that I am not the one that have to save him. He have to save himself. I can't always sacrifice myself to get someone else a better life at my cost. I can't give all of myself to loose my ground. To loose myself or my health either.
The towers are falling. All over and somewhere inside me, it feels just at the right time. Not a moment to early or to late. The time is right. I am stronger. He is soon at the rock bottom where I was a year ago nearly so it all makes sense. Like it always does when Universe are the director. Just have faith you all. Just have belief in yourself. You can do it. You are the Empress or soon wil be. Just let it all go. Just go with the flow.
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Journal of an Empress
SpiritualitéThe journal of the roller coaster of being in a twinflame journey with a Divine Masculine that ran. The lessons. The blessings. The heartache. The silence. The non-spoken words. The telepathic communications. The longing. The possibilities. The ne...
