Journal of an Empress

Soul awakening

Chapter 31

It is kind of hard to explain when you meet someone that just feels very connected to you. I mean this journey we all have been in and walked away from has always lingered behind the scenes. Will he come back? Do I feel anything? Do I want it? Are we in a true twinflame journey? Is he actually a karmic soulmate?I

Still I am not sure. I haven't actually felt him for very long. I have seen him and haven't felt anything more then pity for his soul. I am so far from him that I can never see myself with him.

And then it happened. Someone appeared that I felt that I should reach out to. We have talked and met two times and my soul and heart is just lit up. It feels like a really warm soul connection. I have known him from before and actually for more than twenty years ago I think that we have kissed. Short. On a party. I wasn't even close to be awake then and neither was he.

We can talk. For hours. We can be silent, just holding hands and just want to cry of gratitude. I just feel so protected. Safe. 

He is also a soul that feels it and for him meeting me has awakening his true soul. His souls purpose and somehow it is aligning with me. It just feel so easy and I can just sit and look at him for hours. Kiss him. Hold him. Near. To just feel safe. 

I thought I would never feel this way again. I thought I would never feel the curiosity of wanting to learn about a new person. Feel the eager to want to know more, want to be close to him and want to just touch him. I find myself smiling while thinking of him. While feeling in my stomach the need for just being around him.  

When he talk. When he smile. When he touches me. When he kiss me, I just feel this cloudy feeling. Cotton-like around me and I feel that he will always be there. For me. I feel like I want to  be there for him. I know that whenever I would need him he would reach out to help. He is like this cozy, strong protecting man for me. 

For once I can feel myself into this relationship. I can feel that I am safe. I can feel from heart that I don't want to let him go. Can't see myself in a life without him.  I just want to know him more. Feel a thrust that is building inside. With him. Going on this life adventure ahead of us and knowing that we will have laughter, warmth and each other to lean on. Making memories. Making stories. That we can talk about when we are older. 

Over one year ago I thought my life was heading in another direction and that I was in that relationship that I was suppose to be in. Now I know that I wasn't. It is not even close. Or somewhere everything that was is a closed book for me. I have no need for looking back, at anything.  This is a totally new chapter because now my soul has awakened. Totally. 

I just know that this is the road that might lead to true happiness if we let it grow in a pace that is good for us both. I just want to be with him. Cause I feel blessed. So, so blessed. He is openminded, spiritual and just so caring in his soul. 

I think that I might be very much in love with him eventually and actually in my heart I know I already got this amazing strong feelings even if they sometimes scares me. .It is not similar to anything I have experienced that is why I want to cherish this pace to really FEEL with every step we take.

Thank you Divine and Universe for preparing me for this. Thank you, again and again. Thank you.