Marvel Imagines pt. 5

The sound of love 5 ❤️‍🔥 Knight!Steve

Song: Eternal Eclipse - mirage.

Warnings: angst, angst, angst, mentions of the fight, arguing. emotions.

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You still hear the battle going on inside your head. The screams torn from the mens throats as they slaughtered each other with pure rage.

How their blades cut through one another in order to get closer to you. Only to find out that those who did would end up being killed by your own very sword.

You see the tent in front of you again, the one you found Steve in. You can remember the relief that washed over you when you saw he was still alive and breathing. You can still feel the press of his hand against your neck as you said his name.

How his hand twitched and the same relief washed over him. You relive the moment your lips met his after months of worry and anxiety. A bitter laugh leaves your throat.

Already sore from all the grief and sorrow that washed over you once you reached the one place you feel safe at. Or at least used to feel safe at.

Now the tree with the small pond in front of it serves as a painful reminder of what you used to have. The bond you formed that night with Steve, it was supposed to last forever, it was the very drive that made you save him from his captor.

Bring a siren saved him, but apparently being just that was what killed the bond as well. You never asked to become this, you never asked for Rumlow to drown you for your loyalty to Queen Margaret.

Your skin hurts now that the cool evening air hits it. Trying to rid yourself of the guilt, blood and the scales comes with a price, a very painful one.

You bring your knees up to your chest, your toes barely touching the water anymore. You watch the water, occasionally touching it with your toe to make circles.

The water slowly starts to light up in a light blue colour, just like it did the night Steve and you-

A hand comes to lay on your shoulder and you startle. You immediately stand up and push the hand off of you. Again you hiss at the sting that gives you.

You stare at the man in front of you. It's almost like it's the first time you look at him. This is the first time in months he truly looked you in the eye like this.

He holds up his hand and present the contents in it like it's some sort of explanation. Perhaps he means it as a question. 'Take it... it belongs on your finger...' He signs.

'No, it's yours now, find someone else to wear it...'

Steve expects some sort of reaction but this isn't the one he wants, or needs. But he understands.

'It's yours...' he takes your hand in his and tries to pry the ring onto your finger but you struggle against him.

His hold on you tightens and then- SLAP. The stinging sensation fills his cheek and he finally lets go. He gives you a startled expression while your eyes fill with fresh tears.

'Y/n...'

'Stay away from me...' you create your distance and it physically hurts Steve even more to see you like this. 'Go back to your friends... '

'No...it's a misunderstanding.. y/n I love you... I would never want to break the promise we made...'

Even though he can't hear it, judging by your expression, you just gave him a scoff. 'I never wanted to be this! Do you think I like being this monster?'
'You're not a monster...'

'Well you and your friends seem to think so, when I brought you to the horse... they gave me the most disgusted looks I have ever received... after risking my own life to save their friend... to save my...' you choke up, unable to sign anything else to him, overcome with emotions.

'I was not trying to ignore you.. I wanted to keep the pain they caused me from tainting you.. so I hid away and that's made you believe I share the same judgement as them... but when I heard what you did to save me I couldn't help but love you even more..'

'How can I believe anything of that?'

He holds up his hand and points at his wedding ring, still sitting on his finger. 'I promised to never lie to you-'

You wave him off again as you stray further away, he follows you however. Trying to grab anything, just so he can stop you.

He managed to take your hand and this time you let him. 'I am sorry... and I will never do that to you again...' he gets down on one knee. 'Please forgive me, my love...'

You can't resist, not when he's asking your forgiveness in possibly the most vulnerable way. He means it, you can tell that much.

'All I wanted was for you to come back unharmed... all I wanted was you...'

'I know, I was a fool to not tell you how I felt, and I deeply regret it... I do... the relief I felt when I finally felt you say my name... it was the best feeling in the world...I do not care that you're a siren, because to me you are so much more...'

You kneel down as well. Tired and defeated. 'You have nothing to feel guilty off, I would've done the same if that was you..'

He sits down fully now and so do you. 'Please..'

Without another hand gesture, you scoot against him. Tears flow freely now, all the hurt coming out like tiny tsunamis. 'Please forgive me, my love...'