Marvel Imagines pt. 5

You don't believe me ❤️‍🔥 Loki

Song: Lana Del Rey - Ride.

Imagine: you don't take your pills, because you know he is not in your imagination, but maybe he is?

Warnings; mental hospital, mentions of mental illness, fluff, angst.

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Loki felt more guilty now than he has in his long life. He should not have taken on this mission and even more now that he's become attached to the one person he was send to extract into formation from.

Taken by Hydra at a young age and tested in with various forms of the serum, you developed a mental illness as a side effect. You felt so lonely in Hydras grasp that you formed people in your head. But even in the facility for the mentally ill at shield, you were the outsider. No matter how many meds they take, they can never find a way to act kindly towards you. Even if they're shield.

You're ignored by the other residents and by the nurses for one simple reason. You're a mutant, and mutants are weird and scary, so better to not pay attention to them right?

Well luckily one other resident did not think of you in that way, perhaps only because of his mutant side, or maybe he genuinely likes to be around you. Either way, you don't care.

You like spending time with him. Talking to him makes you feel less of an outsider. It's like he takes you by the hand when he tells stories, he's your very own Peter Pan.

And that's how you get through the long days. Together with Loki.

'Y/n...' he sounds serious and you hate it when he does. That's because you already know what this is about. 'You know what I'm about to say...' he says holding the full bottle of pills in his hand.

'Yes I do and I do not want to hear it...' you turn to the window again.

'Take the pills, love.. they will help you..'

'But then you go away... and I'll be all alone again.. I don't wanna be alone again...'

'You should take them...these will make you feel better...'

'They never have... and besides, what if I take them and you disappear? I can't risk it... I-' you let out a huff of frustration as you fiddle with your fingers.

"Loki, you have to end this now, we have enough information...'

He rethinks the statement made by Steve and he grimaces at it. This way he has to make you believe that he is not real, and the way you're getting treated won't make you better.

'I have to tell you something...' he sighs and sits down on the bed in the corner of the room. 'I am not real... I am a figment of your imagination its not healthy...'

'No! you are real! I can touch you! See?' You go to touch his hand but instead of letting you actually touch him, he uses his magic to make it appear as if he's speaking the truth.

'What?' You ask confused as you try again, and again, and again. 'No... no...' you shake your head. 'You're my only friend I....'

'No...'

'Y/n' he sighs as he watches you pace around the room. Your hands taking fists full of hair. 'I'm sorry...'

'You're not really my friend, are you?'

'No...'

You take the bottle of pills in a fury and take two. He watches you with guilt settling in his gut. The way you're clearly in distress makes it worse, you're not taking those pills for your own good but to get rid of the pain, to get rid of him. And he's letting you.

You close your eyes, when you dare to open them again he's long gone, he's made himself invisible. Not that you will ever know about it though.

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It's been weeks since you're out from that mental hospital, taking your pills and getting better and better. You still have check ins but you're doing well. Much better than when you were in there.

You're not paying attention though, knocking face first into someone and almost falling back on your ass. Luckily the stranger has saved you from that.

'I'm sorry I wasn't paying attention and-' you fall silent when your eyes cast upon the familiar face. A face you wished to never see again.

'Loki?'

'Yes Y/n, it's me..' he happily says, completely forgetting what he'll he put you through by pretending to be a made up thing from your own mind.

'No, no you're back, how? I'm taking my pills..' you immediately immediately yourself from him. He reaches out but that just creates more and more.

'Y/n no-'

'You're not real, I'm taking my pills, I can't be seeing you when I'm on those pills!' You yell a little loud.

'I lied.... I'm so sorry Y/n, I am real and I had I lie to you to make you take those pills and I'm so sorry...'

'You used me...' your eyes fill with tears. 'You used me to get what? Information?'

'The avengers needed me to get information only you could have... and I did... I didn't want to leave but I had to... you had to take the pills to get better...'

'You didn't lie about one thing though...'

'What's are you talking about?'

'You're not my friend... goodbye Loki..'