it's u || minsung

35

"ji please talk to me." minho pleaded as they entered their hotel room, setting their stuff down.

"i don't know what to say." jisung sighed as he sat on his bed.

"i'm scared, okay?" minho shakily sighed.

jisung got up, wrapping his arms around minho.

"do you want to talk about it now?" he questioned softly.

"let's sit." minho led them to the bed, sitting jisung down. "as you know, my relationship with younghyun was awful. i'm just scared of getting hurt. i'm scared of not being enough for you. i'm scared of my feelings." minho said with teary eyes.

"i understand that...but what are you trying to say?" jisung asked, a bad feeling bubbling in his throat.

"maybe we should...slow down? i don't know. it's just not fair to you if i'm too scared of how i feel for you." minho sighed as tears fell from his eyes.

"you don't mean that...you're pushing me away..." jisung sobbed.

"jisung that's not what i'm trying to do." minho hurriedly said.

"it's okay hyung. if you need to push me away for a bit to figure out your feelings, i respect that. just don't beat around the bush and tell me."

"jisung..." minho let out a shaky breath. "i don't know what to do."

"i'll just give you a little bit of distance. starting tonight." jisung sobbed as he got up, quickly leaving the room.

fuck minho, this wasn't supposed to happen. you're pushing him away because you fell in love. you're a coward, too scared of your own emotions. too scared to love someone.

how pathetic.

"felix, open the door!" jisung banged on the door, letting out a sob.

i should have never kissed him.

"sun? what's wrong?" felix asked gently. "what the fuck did minho do?" he was trying to keep a soft tone but was very aggressive.

"no. nothing is his fault so don't you dare be angry at him." jisung sobbed, walking into the room. "i'll just sleep here."

"sun, what's going on?" changbin asked, his tone serious.

"i..i can't tell you." jisung tried to calm his breathing, wiping the tears off his face.

"why not?" felix asked, confused at the situation.

"i just can't okay! it's private!" jisung said as he choked back a sob.

"oh sun..." felix frowned, pulling jisung to sandwich him next to changbin.

jisung cried himself to sleep in the couples arms, a frown present on his face.

"jisung, minho said he needs to talk to you." felix shook jisungs shoulders, waking him up.

"tell him i'm busy." jisung said quietly.

"sung we need to talk." he heard minho speak in a very serious tone.

"hyung, it's okay." jisung said, burying his face into the pillow.

"jisung could you please just listen to me?" minho pleaded desperately.

"we're gonna go." felix said, grabbing changbins hand and leaving.

"hyung i said it's okay. i understand." jisung sighed, sitting up and avoiding eye contact.

"it's not fair though! why do we both have to be hurting because of my fear? let's just continue-"

jisung cut minho off, choking back tears. "if we start something with you scared of your own feelings, we're just both going to get hurt. i agree, we should slow down. let you sort things out. for the sake of us. i really, really like you minho hyung. let's take our time. i'll give you distance."

"i'm not pushing you away. you're pushing yourself away. jisung, why are you putting this distance between us?" minho said desperately as tears brimmed his eyes.

"we need some distance. are you supposed to get over your fear of starting a new relationship by making out with me every two seconds?" jisung questioned.

"no, but i wanted you to be there for me! i wanted you to be by my side while i figured things out. i always try to do everything i can to be by your side while you're struggling, why are you pushing me away when i need you?" minho sobbed. this was jisungs breaking point.

"i'm sorry i just don't know how to help people. i've never had anyone genuinely care about me and i've never felt this way about someone before. i'm so sorry for trying to push you away. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'll be right by your side, holding your hand. i promise i'll be here for you. i promise to try and help you. i'm sorry. i'm so so sorry." jisung sobbed into his hands, being pulled into minhos embrace.

"this is difficult for us both, so let's take our time together." minho said gently.

"i don't need comforting right now." jisung said as he sat up, pulling minhos head to his chest and running his fingers through his hair. "let's do this, together."

"thank you." minho said quietly, feeling jisung press a small peck on top of his head.

"we'll get through this together." jisung repeated quietly.

minho sat up, offering a small smile as he wiped jisungs tear stained face. jisung let out a small laugh, wiping minhos tears.

"we have a flight to catch." minho laughed, pulling jisung up off the bed.

"let's go get ready." jisung smiled.

"you can shower first." minho said as they entered the hotel room.

"thank you, hyung." jisung smiled.

"thank you, sung." minho returned the smile, laying down on his bed.

a/n: i almost made them shut each other out completely but that's not healthy 🫶 we stan a healthy relationship. anyways, i hope you're enjoying the book 🫶