After setting my umbrella on the beach,I laid on the mat staring ahead at the ocean. I felt at peace,the beach wasn't much crowded since it was Friday. Parents working, kids at school and blah blah. I liked it because it gave me the time and silence to think. Since I graduated highschool it's being like I lost connection with a part of myself. The old me will still be couped up in her room crying over Drake,my heart still bled at his name and I knew it was because I lacked closure. I never got around asking him why? Why he had to break my trust. Then again this new me has matured, I'm adapting to the adult world and it feels great. But it's barely being three months and so much drama has occurred. I have being pushing Charles and our supposed date out of my mind but I simply had to address it. I don't feel anything for him and Sarah was right, going on that date will only lead him on. Then again I needed a breath of fresh air, to feel young again worrying about nothing and just having fun. When last did I have a make out session? When last did I even visit our pool or take a walk in the garden? Lets not talk about my social media life,I use to be an influencer but now I've barely posted any pictures. I enjoyed
Working, feeling self-made but do I have to give up the fun loving Lizzy for that? "What troubles you?" A familiar voice calls from above me,I looked up to smile at him. "Mr Parker fancy seeing you here," "please Lizzy call me Joel when we are not in the working environment" he jokes. He sets a mat beside mine sharing my huge umbrella while I took my time admiring his abs. He was hot no doubt but the fact that my mind went back to William just proves how messed up he has me. "So halo" Joel smiles once he had laid down, "don't you have work to do?" I questioned. "Yes I very much do but a man needs a break" he smirks folding his arms under his head, hot!. Try telling that to William,I thought he would even offer to accompany me to the beach but he showed no sign of caring. Trust only me to like a man who doesn't like me back. "Lizzy! Lizzy!" Joel calls a couple of times,"Oh! sorry" I blushed giving him a sheepish grin. "What troubles you?" He stares at me intently,"life" I sighed looking away from him back to the ocean. Some people were taking a dip,"I feel like I don't know myself anymore" I whispered still staring at the ocean. "It's to be expected" he says and I snapped my head to the side to stare at him, "just try to dig deep into your heart and ask yourself, who are you?" "That's deep Mr playboy" I teased with a small laugh, "hey! I'm a 70 years old man in the body of a sexy 25years old" he jokes throwing me a wink. "Sure" I rolled my eyes, "so how's that grumpy boss of yours?" "He's breathing" I shrugged. "William kwin" Joel murmurs, "do you know him?" I asked, "everyone does and no one does at the same time" he smiles sadly. "What does that mean?" I raised my brows confused. "No one has ever gotten through the walls he built around his self," yes Will was professional but he doesn't look like a sadist to me. As if reading my thoughts Joel smiles, "no one hides their emotions better than him. I have studied him for awhile to know when he says yes he mostly means no," "why?" "Why what?" He raised his brows. "Why are you so interested in him?" Joel tensed up and looked away,I found it extremely strange. "Joel!" I called out softly, "I will tell you when I'm ready but let's talk about other thinks first" he smiles looking back at me. I agreed reluctantly, "where did you study?" I change the subject "London," "really!" I sit up with a squeak," yes why" he laughs. "Me and my friends are planning to attend there" I smiled, "good choice" he nods with a smirk,"I assure you they are alot of hot men there" he adds. "Okay?" I rolled my eyes and he chuckles, "but seriously, tell me how it's like" I tilled my head down to stare at him and it didn't feel weird or uncomfortable. Like that we spent hours getting to know each other. Joel was a really cool dude and I could see us being really close friends. "Lizzy!" Joel calls out into the now dark sky, we were taking a stroll, Will's driver not far behind with the car. "Yeah?" "I'm gay," I froze snapping my head speedily to stare at him. He looked ashamed but held my gaze,"wow! That's cool" I chuckled to ease the air. I'm a Christian and I believe being gay is wrong but Joel is entitled to his own believes and it's my duty as a person to respect it. "Why then do you appear on the news with different women?" I ask the obvious. "No one knows I'm gay, my parents will disown me if they knew" he sighs. "I'm sorry to hear that," "life sucks" he grumbles with a shrug. I really didn't want to offend him but I needed to know. "Do you love William?" It was silent for a few minutes letting me appreciate the cool breeze kissing my naked legs. The night was quiet so it was easy to hear him, "yes" he says in a small voice,it didn't come as much of a shocker. "Why?" I was curious, "there is more to that man than what meets the eye and everytime I see him I just want to strip him naked and fuck him to oblivion" he rants. Okay gross,how many more people love William? Huh. "That image is forever stuck in my mind" I fake gag and Joel laughs blushing slightly. "I'm sorry I always lose myself when I'm talking about him," "you know there is no chance right?" "Yes but I'm okay loving him from afar and it's okay if my friend gets him" he nudged my shoulders. "What?!" "Oh come on Lizzy, I can see you have the hots for that man," "you're crazy" I giggled. "Well as long as you promise to give me all the dirty details I don't mind," "that's not happening and I don't even think he likes me" I whispered kicking a pebble on my path. I felt vulnerable talking about William, "I don't know if he does but you can't give up okay?" Joel pulls me into a hug. "I really needed this" I squeezed him back, "I'm always here Lizzy any day any time". "Stop you're going to make me cry" I sniffed trying to blink away the coming tears. "Hey! Don't I have zero experience with crying ladies" he jokes pulling back slightly. "I've always wanted to kiss a gay guy" I murmured staring at his lips,to be honest I just want to kiss someone, "well go for it" Joel grins. Feeling bold I linked my lips with his, wrapping my hands around his neck and tugging on his hair, it felt nice but my heart didn't beat faster still I kept sucking his face off. He responded almost immediately wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me closer then it turned into a full make out session. Then bam, "Lizzy!" I jumped away from Joel so fast in shock, turning around to stare at William. He was standing in front of our hotel, fists clenched, I didn't even realize we had walked all the way here. "I should leave" Joel coughs awkwardly, "bye" I murmured embarrassed. What must William think of me? A shameless slut that's what, kissing the competition. "Lets go inside it's cold," his voice was like ice and I shivered, I don't need a scientist to tell me his pissed so I just nod. He turns around not waiting for me before matching off, why was he outside? Please tell me he wasn't waiting for me. God I feel so awful even though the kiss meant nothing to either of us.
♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️Mmmmm,I feel so scared for Lizzy,what will William do when their alone? Vote and comment lovelies.
