I had thought of so many things I wanted to say. Like an English essay I diligently worked on it not to disappoint. But as I sat here staring into my favorite pair of eyes my mind failed me. I couldn't spill out a single sentence and like the real gem he was he waited. Waited for me to find my words, "I love you" it was a good start and he smiled chuckled even. "Your elaborate scheme for my birthday wasn't left unnoticed my love", "sorry I just needed to see you" I blushed looking away. "I know and for just today I want to pretend nothing went wrong between us....." "nothing did William people were the ones who pulled us apart" I frowned. "Let's not focus on the past belle, so tell me" he leans back making me take in his handsome self. "How is London?" I rambled on and on even whined at some point but all he did was listen. There was no one as perfect as William Kwin in my eyes he was a god himself. "You are living like a shadow Belle, why?" "Oh! Forgive me did you forget I'm mourning" I sassed crossing my arms. "I didn't die and this was meant to happen even if it was a few months from now," "I know but it doesn't make it hurt any less" I whispered. "I know Elizabeth but you can't put a stop to your life because of me....." "it's my decision Will! Let me decide" I frowned looking away. I knew he was right but why does everyone keep forgetting it has only being one month. You don't forget a relationship just like that it's impossible. "I know it's yours Elizabeth but you're hurting everyone in the process," "does that mean you're moving on?" He sighs looking down. "William!" I called out terrified to hear his answer. "Yes Lizzy I'm trying to forget you". "How? How could you?" "Lizzy....." I disconnected not wanting to see his stupid face anymore. He was just like others. Women were re nothing to them our relationship was just another score in his belt. Fuck a virgin ten points to think I cried for that asshole! That imbecile! But not anymore because from now on William James kwin was dead to me.
"What made you change your mind?" Gloria whispers into my ears as I downed my shots. "What?" I asked. "I know you weren't really sick Lizzy," "I was Gloria and now I'm better" I smiled before looking back at my companion. "Hey there I'm Lizzy," "Asher" he takes my hand placing a kiss on it. "That accent doesn't sound English?" "Lizzy" Gloria taps me. "I'm in the middle of a conversation Gloria go join the others at the table" I glared at her. "No I'm not English I'm Mexican" he grins, "oh that's wonderful I haven't being there yet but I do plan to visit one day". "Well I could take you" he smirks leaning closer, "well I know a few places you can take me" I lowered my voice seductively. He gulps picking his beer and taking a big swing I bit my lips to hide my smirk. Who knew seducing guys was this fun seeing their guards and restrain crumble until their taking you up against a bathroom stall. "Let's go somewhere more private," finally I was getting bored. "ofcourse just another drink". "Bartender a glass of whiskey please" I smiled, "put it on this gentleman's tab" I added sending Asher a wink. After gulping the remains of my drink I grabbed my purse and let Asher lead me out of the club. I texted Sarah to let the others know I had left. Good thing I didn't drive my car. Asher opens the door to his car and I slipped in graciously purse on my lap and seatbelt on. "Umm do you really want to do this?" He asked, "don't be nervous I know what I'm in for" I smiled assuring him. He nods then murmurs something under his breath before driving off. He drives to a sketchy part of town but I wasn't worried I had a can of pepper spray and a knife in my purse. "Excuse the neighborhood, I live on campus and I couldn't take you there so I'm.....I'm renting a motel since I can't afford an hotel, oh my god I'm rambling I'm so nervous you're so beautiful and I....." "Asher" I placed my hands on his mostly to shut him up. "It's okay let's go inside" "okay okay I can do that" he chuckles nervously. I was starting to think I had picked the wrong guy. He books the room before leading me to it. The room was small with peeled paint and holes on the curtains. Atleast the bedsheet was clean and it had a properly working fan. "So" he smiles standing by the bed as I sat down waiting for him to make a move. "Oh my I'm so nervous I just broke up with my girlfriend and oh no I don't want you to think you're a rebound you are beautiful, smart and confident I'm lucky you're giving me a chance". Okay I'm out of here. "Nice meeting you Asher" I stood up, "oh! you're leaving?" he sighs with an embarrassed frown. "Unfortunately yes. I had prior meetings that I forgot about so......have fun" I lied before walking out. I called a cab giving him my home address as I leaned my head against the glass. Once I was dropped off I walked through the gate towards the house and I noticed the lights were still turned off meaning the others hadn't arrived yet.
Kicking my heels off by my room door I shut it behind me stripping off my dress. Left in my underwear I walked into the closet pulling open my pants drawer and searching for the small bag. "Lizzy I'm trying to forget you" were the only things I heard as I spread the white powder on top of the drawer. Taking a sniff I sighed before leaning my back against the drawer as my vision began to blur. I could barely make out my clothes hanger. I tried to keep the drugs back before crawling out of the wardrobe to my bed. Getting on top was a real challenge considering I was seeing two of everything. After much struggling I finally fell face flat on the bedsheet not bothering to get under the covers before shutting my eyes.
♥️♥️♥️♥️Fuck Will you just lost my support, guys!😭😭😭
