...for the Sanos

chapter 24

"What do you want, takemichi?"
  Hinata shouted at the man after she had faced him, her honey brown eyes wandering into takemichi ocean irises with softness while her tone contained a cold emotion. Takemichi eyes trembled, unable to speak a word. Once again, he just remembers that he wanted to talk to her, he wanted to tell her everything...but now he seems like, he just forgot everything that he wanted to say. Is he that stupid to not compose himself?

"I..."
He looked everywhere but hinatas determined gazed fixed so hard all on his own blues.
"Say it takemichi..."
Her expression changed, it looked from determined and confident to more of a worried face. Or more like a face so done, a face that contained heavy disappointment, a face that had lost all its hope on the figure right infront. Takemichi felt pathetic, like a sharp sword just peirced through his soul, he felt guilt, he felt pathetic all over again like the time he felt when he had sex with Mikey. His body might have accepted things, but his mind wants to run, it's just wants to run away...

"What do you think of me hinachan?..."
It felt heavy, his throat felt as if they contained rocks. This are his same emotions, just how long is he gonna feel them. He hates them. He asked her this, yes he did, he wants to know. He doesn't need to tell in detail to the girl, she can just answer by looking at him. Bruised lips, tainted neck and marks all over. Hinata should be able to tell it. The girl did not react, it was like she knew this was coming. She knew, that takemichi being in that filthy house is never something good at all. She knew it and yet she regrets from not being able to stop him. She knew he will come to her...but now, even if she does, how can she accept him, he is no longer hers... He is all taken away. He is bonded completely with their name.

The girl tightened her eyes, as all this thoughts kept on rushing into her head like as if they were mocking her. She wants to cry, oh how badly she wants to shout out the pain she is feeling right now. But she doesn't want to. Takemichi is precious, that boy deserves all the treasure in this world and suddenly she is feeling herself worthless, not having the standard to be beside the man she loves, not having the strength to protect the man she adores. She is feeling like she has lost it all.
"You need to stop takemichi..."
She said in a soft voice, but that voice felt like the sword tear the heart further...it ached so bad that takemichi wanted to cry. What does hinachan mean to stop, stop what! He hasn't stopped loving her yet...he will still go on...
"Will you accept me if you get the chance?...i want to know this...i have lost it all, i know you already end the conversation...but please, i want you to hear this...i want to have an answer Hina Chan...or else, i don't know why, i feeling so restless. Im craving to know wheather you will hug me back, i want to know whether you will look at me the same way you used to do so...tell me Hina Chan...I'm hungry ...I'm so hungry for your answer...."
Takemichi broke down down into silent tears while hinata let the atmosphere tighten the grip on her, she still kept her attitude. She wanted takemichi to move on, she wants takemichi to be true to himself, she knows what takemichi craves for....
"I'm so ready... Takemichi kun, I'm so ready to hug you right now...i want to touch you, i want you kiss you, i want to adore you just like before...but...are you sure, your heart can really be satisfied with me?...think again, takemichi... kun?... you still do not know what you want right?..."
Takemichi just let everything and everyword that the girl spoke eat him up. Hinata sniffed more of her tears back before she walked out of the place towards the door through which they entered only to result in meeting a very predatory eye contact with leverder eyes tracing the strongest gaze right on the man behind her. Takemichi turned around and flinched at the moment his eyes got caught into the sinful abyss of the levender glories.

But he didn't not let those eyes control him, he knew what was coming further, he is not going to take this anymore no matter how much does his body want to run to the man right there.
"Hinachan...what if i..."
"Only if you are able to... takemichi kun"
And with that the figure moved out of the place. Izana didn't waste his time in figuring out the environment, his abnormility of not caring about a thing made him move further with what he wanted.
"Follow me... takemichi"
He sneered when he saw the man walk towards him with the most cutest and small steps. How obedient, izana just loves obedient pets. They walked down to through the corridors, izana leading the way and takemichi obedienty following behind with hundreds of thoughts on his head.

Hinata stood at the side, in the corner of the door, already broken out of her tough character. She cried bitterly seeing the boy she loved already was taken from her. She is trying her best, is this rediculous? But she is trying her best to cope up with her thought that he is hers no more or maybe never was. She just had to give him up and she just has to learn to give him up.