Katana's POV
"Well boys." I say as I finish my umpteenth alcoholic drink of today while sitting on the balcony of my London home with my pups. "I fucking hate today."
"Woah." I hear someone behind me say as a bunch of bottles clink around.
"Watch your step." I say as I look out all the buildings I can see from my balcony. "It's a bit messy."
"A bit." Jordan mumbles.
"I only had one or two drinks." I say.
"Or 50." Katie says
"Oops."
"You missed training." Someone says.
"Who gives a fuck." I say then I sip on my next drink.
"Okay." I hear Jordan say then she takes the alcoholic drink out of my hand.
"Hey." I say and snatch it back. "Get your own."
"Alright." I hear Talia say then she grabs my drink as Emma sits on me.
"You're on my dick." I breathlessly say.
"Good." Talia and Emma say then they shoo whoever is here back inside.
"Now what happened to not drinking on Oksana's birthday?" Emma asks.
"What happened is I want my wife back." I mumble. "I should have Mikaela and Oksana by my side for the rest of my life."
"Well unfortunately that isn't possible." Talia says.
"Shoulda died with my family in Ukraine." I say.
"And leave Mikaela, your sisters, us, and all your other friends sad for the rest of our lives?" Emma questions.
"You'd have gotten over it." I say.
"Katana if that's the way you actually feel then we've been shit friends and we need to have a long fucking talk." Emma says.
"And you really wanna do this now?" Talia asks. "After all the shit you've been through in the last year you just wanna say fuck it and die?"
"And what if I do?" I ask as I finally look at my friends. "What if I want to die."
"Then you need to fucking talk to us about it." Emma says. "Or talk to fucking someone about it."
"What's the point?" I ask.
"Because I need you." I hear Mikaela say behind me.
Fuck.
"You may need me a lot, but I fucking need you too Katana." Mikaela says then Emma and Talia get off of me.
"We'll be inside." Emma and Talia say then they leave as Mikaela sits next to my legs.
Once the door to the patio shuts, my wife looks at me.
"I need you and our future child needs you Katana." Mikaela says.
"I know." I say as I lazily pet my pups. "I just wish Oksana and Oleksandr we're here with us."
"I know." Mikaela says then she moves up and sits next to me.
Once Mikaela's sat next to me, I lean my head on her shoulder then we sit in silence for a few minutes.
"Mikki?" I say.
"Yeah Kit-Kat?"
"Am I sleeping on the couch tonight?" I ask causing Mikaela to chuckle.
"No baby." Mikaela says. "You're still getting cuddles."
"Yay." I say then I get a whiff of myself. "I stink."
Mikaela chuckles the she kisses my head.
"Come on Stinky." My wife says. "Let's get you showered and sober."
- - - - -
"Who brought food?" I ask as I eat my burger while sitting with my arsenal teammates in my home.
I did shower and change.
While I was showering, my patio was cleaned of the bottles of alcohol so I guess my teammates cleaned it.
"We kinda just ordered food." Leah says.
"Well thank you." I say with a mouthful.
"Katana." Mikaela warns.
"Sowwy." I say then I swallow my food.
"Poohead." Mikaela says.
I smile at my wife then my phone buzzes so I look at it.
"Oh." I say with a soft smile. "My music video's out."
"Music video?" Everyone says.
I nod then I use my phone to pull my new music video up onto my tv.
Once my music video is on the tv, I press play then we watch it while eating.
The beginning of the video starts with me sitting on my own drinking coffee while looking at a picture of Oksana.
As I start singing, the video transitions to an animation of Oksana and I sitting in the kitchen of our old home in Ukraine.
Here I am waking up, still can't sleep on your side
There's your coffee cup, the lipstick stain fades with time
If I could dream long enough, you'd tell me I'd be just fine
I'll be just fine
After the first verse, the animation transitions to me and Oksana dancing throughout our home and it stays there for the rest of the song.
So I drown it out like I always do
Dancing through our house with the ghost of you
And I chase it down, with this shot of truth
Dancing through our house with the ghost of you
Cleaning up today, found that old Zeppelin shirt
You wore when you ran away, and no one could feel your hurt
We're too young, too dumb, to know things like love
But I know better now, better now
So I drown it out like I always do
Dancing through our house with the ghost of you
And I chase it down, with this shot of truth
Dancing through our house with the ghost of you
(Fine)
Too young, too dumb
(Fine)
To know things like love
(Fine)
Too young, too dumb
(Fine)
So I drown it out like I always do
Dancing through our house with the ghost of you
And I chase it down, with this shot of truth
That my feet don't dance like they did with you
When the music and singing ends, the animation fades away back to me dancing on my own then the camera focuses on me dancing, but this time I'm dancing with Oksana's urn.
Once I finish dancing, the Camera approaches me as I kiss Oksana's urn then the camera zooms in on Oksana's urn until you can read what it says on it.
Oksana Solo
September 8, 1998-March 4th, 2022
Loving Wife and Mother
Forever Loved
Forever Missed
"You bitch." Jessie says as she fans her eyes.
"Oops." I say as I exit the Youtube app and put the tv back on whatever game it was on.
"Meanie." Leah says causing me to playfully pout. "Mikaela can you..."
"On it." Mikaela says then she kisses me.
"Better?" Leah asks as I smile.
"Yeah." I say with a smile as I pull my wife closer to me. "Yeah I am."
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