A letter is never ill-timed; it never interrupts.
Instead it waits for us to find the opportune minute, the quiet moment to savor the message.
There is an element of timelessness about letter writing.
-Lois Wyse
"This list is so wrong." Tobin says as I feed my kids while waiting for the game to start.
Since Canada and the US are doing a joint camp before the olympics, the two federations decided to put on a USA Legends v Canada Legends game here in San Diego.
Honestly, I would rather be anywhere but here right now, but we we're forced to come to this game.
The game is happening now at the end of the Battle of the Borders competition, which the US Won 3-2 thanks to our wins in Baseball, Basketball, and Beach Volleyball.
"What list?" Sahara asks
"The Top USWNT players list." Tobin says.
Because this USA Legends v Canada Legends game is happening, US Soccer asked 50 journalists to list their top five all time uswnt players in each position then they averaged everyone's lists to get the top five in each position.
"Why is it bad?" Talia asks as I put Maeve and Nour back in their carrier that's next to me.
"There we go." I whisper with a smile.
"Well just listen to the supposed best keepers of the US Women's national team ever." Tobin says as she reads off her phone. "Number 1 Hope Solo, number 2 Briana Scurry, number 3 Alyssa Naeher, number 4 Nicole Barnhart, and number 5 Katana Solo.
"Well that's complete bull." Abby says.
"I stopped reading after that cause I knew it was BS." I say. "I also put out a response."
"What'd you say?" Sahara asks so I recite my statement from memory.
Me being number five is insanely disrespectful to what I have achieved in my career.
The only USWNT keeper who I would understand being listed higher than me is Emma Harris.
I have the world record for most minutes without conceding a goal.
I am the only American keeper to be voted World Player of the Year and World Goalkeeper of the Year.
I have won 2 straight league titles, 2 straight FA Cups, and 2 straight Champions League titles.
I won the World Cup while not giving up a single goal or penalty the whole tournament.
At the World Cup I won the Golden Ball award and the Golden Glove award.
If you've ever wondered why so few of us on the national team talk to so few journalist it's because of shit like this.
I mean how the fuck do you not have Talia Martin as the top striker to ever play for the USWNT?
"Okay my statement was like three pages long so just go look on my instagram." I say.
"Wait Talia's not the top striker?" Alex asks
"Nope." Emma says. "It's Abby, then you, then Talia."
"Okay these Journalists are idiots." Christen says.
"Mhmm." Everyone says then I notice the USA line-ups for tonight flashing on the small tv screen in front of me in our suite.
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I missed Canada's line-ups, but I did see they have players like Karina Leblanc, Erin McLeod, Rhian Wilkinson, Lauren Sesselmann, Carmelina Moscato, Diana Matheson, Christine Sinclair, Melissa Tancredi, Jonelle Filigno, Kaylyn Kyle, and Charmaine Hooper.
"Fuck this." I mumble then I stand up.
"Where are you going?" Sam asks.
"Inside." I say.
"Why?"
"I have better things to do than watch this game." I say as grab the bag I brought then I grab the twins' carrier and head inside the suite.
When I get inside the suite, I sit the twins on one of the tables in the suite then I sit on a chair at the table.
Once I'm sat down, I pull out my laptop, open it, then I work on stuff that concerns moving my remaining businesses based in Europe over to Denver.
I have to move my tattoo shop, my manufacturing factories for Solo Snowboards and Solace have to be moved from England to Denver.
"You alright?" Tobin asks causing me to look up from my laptop and see a bunch of my friends from the US and Canada teams standing in front of me.
"No." I say as I look back down at my computer. "Why is this game a fucking thing?"
Welp
Here come my feelings.
"I couldn't give a shit about this game." I say. "And I'm pretty sure nobody else is excited to be here."
"True." Someone mumbles.
When we were told about the game happening most of us said we didn't want to go and that this was a fucking stupid, but then everyone got paid an appearance fee so that's the only reason we came
"Why the actual fuck would I want to spend a night watching the woman who robbed my teenage years from me play a meaningless game?" I question. "And I know there are some good people on the pitch, but why would I want to watch a game filled with women who are pieces of shit."
So many of the former USWNT and Canadian players turned out to be terrible people.
Like how is Christie Pearce gonna stand by her shit bag husband after he sexually assaulted a player in their own home.
And how is Christine Sinclair going to call for change in the NWSL then, when the Portland owner decides to sell, she thanks him for his supposed leadership and thanking him for all he's done for women's soccer, whatever that means
Like what the actual fuck Sinclair.
You're former teammate comes out and says she was sexually harassed by a coach who the owner of the Thorns protected from any repercussions and now you're gonna thank that owner.
Honestly that bitch can fuck all the way off.
"I don't know who's idea this was, but it was stupid." I say then I let out a deep sigh.
Stupid feelings.
"But why would US Soccer listen to what their players feel." I say. "They haven't before so why start now?"
