Delilah Morecelli

Chapter 9

Trigger warning: sexual assault/ rape

It was Sunday and I was catching up on my homework but couldn't concentrate. I really need to talk to Jackson. I don't feel the same spark as I did, and I'm honestly not happy in the relationship it's best to end it. He's a jerk and I deserve better

I guess it's time, for a chapter of my life to end. How do you break up with someone? You just be like hey sorry but me and you can no longer be? Or hey you're boring. That's mean Delilah ugh this is so hard I don't want to hurt his feelings. But lately he's been hurting mine.

I hear the doorbell ring and begin to get anxious. I'm scared of his reaction lately he's been yelling at me for no reason. I go and open the door he looks me up and down and enters the house.

"What's wrong now? I have things to do Delilah" there's no use in this relationship anymore. "I'm breaking up with you, I just don't think we're good for each other anymore." There I said it I feel like a weight has been lifted off of me.

He looks at me and starts chuckling, it's not the pretty chuckle that reminds me of a certain someone. No this look in his eyes is scaring me. I don't feel safe anymore.

"But why? Did I do something wrong? I thought we loved each other. It's Nikolai isn't  it your cheating on me?"  He's yelling now. I'm scared I don't want him here anymore.

"No I just don't think we're not happy anymore." He grabs my face and starts kissing me. I need to stop this. I try to push him off of me but he's too strong. "Jackson stop" he continues he holds my hands together and pins me on the couch. I can't help the tears escaping my eyes.

I start trashing around in hopes he lets go of me. "Delilah I love you why don't you love me back" he goes down and begins groping my chest and kissing me in places I don't want him to touch me. "Stop it, what are you doing can you please stop please. If you love me you wouldn't be doing this to me why are you doing this Jackson please stop" I'm a sobbing mess. I want my mom, the twins, Cynthia, Aleksandr I want Nikolai to comfort me. I just need someone to help me. I'm scared

He unbuttons my jeans and I begin kicking, no, no, no,no this can't be happening. He slaps me in the face making me freeze for a second. A second was all it took for him to touch me. I froze and let out a loud cry. His hand is on my mouth while he's touching in places I didn't consent too.

Make him stop, make him stop, make him stop.

"You want to break up with me? I can't believe this. I should be breaking up with you, I never loved you." My heart it feels like someone is slowly stabbing me with it. "Gosh Delilah did you really think anyone could actually be interested in you? You're just a pathetic girl, useless that's what you are" he grabs me by both arms and starts shaking me I couldn't hold in the tears.

"You we're just a bet. That's all you will ever be to people, just a game to get into your pants. Never loved you and never did remember that." He starts kissing me again, "no stop what are you doing? stop!"

He didn't listen. Today he took something from me, something that I was only ever ready to give to someone I trusted, someone I loved. I couldn't get it back now.

I didn't know when I stopped fighting him I felt numb. That's all I felt the entire time he was on top of me, taking my innocence. I didn't realize when he stopped until I heard him zip up his pants.

He smiled at me kissed my forehead and said " now we're over Delilah. Speak this to anyone and that pretty little friend of yours named Cynthia will get the same punishment I just gave you."

No. "Get out! Get out! you piece of shit get out!" He laughs at me and leaves my house. The comfort of my home doesn't feel safe to me anymore, and it never will be ever
again he tainted so many things this day. I'm still here but why does it feel like he killed me.

I can't let Cynthia get hurt, He had ripped my shirt off, and I could barely stand due to the pain. I'm in so much pain mentally . I somehow make it into my room, before everything goes black

Authors note:

If you have ever been sexually assaulted or have been raped. Know that it was NOT your fault nor will it ever be. You did nothing wrong, it wasn't your fault that they couldn't keep it in their pants and mistake the word NO for a yes. No means No. remember you are very loved. And If you have ever gone through a situation like this I'm very sorry you didn't deserve it.
💕for every survivor out there.

Much love and hope you enjoy this book.