Wolfgang (BangChan ff)

Ch-9 : Overwhelmed

Yoonmin: The war ended with his death.

Juno: What about his death eaters- I mean pack.

Yoonmin: Completely wiped out during the war.

Juno: This can't be... If there are no records then how can you be so sure that he is my biological father?

Yoonmin took out his tablet and opened a document showing it to you.

Yoonmin: This is the only document in the world that can prove that you are related to him. Your birth certificate which only me and your mother have.

You looked at it and couldn't believe your eyes. You knew your life was crazy but you didn't know it was this crazy. You tried to take the news in a funny way but it wasn't funny anymore. You slowly stood from your chair and your body was trembling.

Juno: He – Dam- Why the fuck did you never tell me about his? You wanted me to live my whole life in ignorance?

Yoonmin: How could I ever tell you when I knew how much you hated yourself despite not knowing this? Every birthday you would cry yourself night. You felt so unwanted just because he was never there as a father that you even tried to harm yourself with that little blade which didn't work since your wounds healed way too fast. I don't want any of that happening again.

Juno: .....You don't hate me?

Yoonmin: Why would I hate you?

Juno: Your parents and uncles died in the war which would've never happened if it weren't for him.

Yoonmin: And what does that have anything to do with you? They were your family too.

Juno: I'm still his descendant...

Yoonmin: Fuck I knew this would happen. Juno, listen to me. Whatever he did wasn't your fault. You weren't even born back then.

Juno: But... I'm still...

Yoonmin: For all I know, you never wanted anyone dead, especially my parents and our uncles. Whatever he did is not your fault because you are not Damon Wang, you are Min Juno.

Jisung: She's Min Wang Juno.

Minho had to kick Jisung under the table and whisper to him.

Minho: You're not helping.

Juno: He's right though.

Unable to process all this new information you stumbled back. You didn't want to face anyone right now so you ran towards the door but Yoonmin stopped you.

Yoonmin: Where are you going?

Juno: I just need some time alone.

Yoonmin: I'll come with you.

Juno: I want to be alone, please.

Yoonmin: Just promise you won't try to harm yourself.

Juno: I won't.

You walked out of the meeting room and went towards your locker grabbing your black hoodie out of it. You wore it and pulled the hood on as you escaped through the training field in the back which was partly connected to the woods for other training purposes.

Meanwhile in the meeting room:

Chan: Yoonmin, I want you to move in with us today in the main house so we can start training you more.

Yoonmin: I... Yes, Alpha.

Felix: What are we going to do about Juno?

Yoonmin: What about her?

Chan: Well... for right now we need to give her space.

Changbin: You are her mate. You're supposed to be there for her.

Chan: I'm sure she wants to be alone right now. We've discussed everything we gathered here for. You can leave for your classes now. Meeting Dismissed!

They all left towards their respective classes. Meanwhile you were aimlessly wandering through the woods. You decided to go to the lake you and Yoonmin always used to go to get some peaceful time. The lake was huge almost like a river spanning through the entire land of the pack. You sat near the lake and stared at it while your thoughts wandered off to whatever you learned about yourself today.

Alpha and a royal... it didn't matter to you. All you wanted in your life was a family to be happy with. But you didn't have one just because of your father. It always hurt you how he never wanted you and left your mother just like that. You hated your existence because you knew it reminded your mother of him. 

Every birthday you questioned what the purpose of your existence was. If the person who was responsible for your birth didn't want you then who else would? It was the reason you always believed that whoever your mate would be would end up rejecting you. 

Why were you even alive? Your father didn't want you. Your mother was reminded of painful memories every time she saw you. Yoonmin who had always been there for you lost his parents because of your father. How could he not hate you? Not only him, but many people in your pack lost their loved ones because of your father. Many people from many packs had lost their loved ones all because of your father. 

No matter what everyone said they would still look at the eyes of hate once they know your reality. You don't even blame Chan for hating you anymore. He as an alpha who lost many pack members due the war was bound to hate you.

A tear escaped your eye no matter how hard you tried to hold it in. You mumbled a quiet sorry to your aunt and uncles for whatever happened. You had to accept the fact that you had the blood of a warmonger in you. You had the weight of hundreds of lives on your shoulders. Your hands were tainted with the blood of many innocent lives that were dragged in the messy war just because they wanted to protect their packs. 

With every minute that passed by you couldn't help but feel more disgusted by yourself. Nothing you will ever do will compensate for their loss and the damage caused. If everyone knew who you were they would hate you with every ounce of their being. Not just people from your pack, but people from every other pack who were involved in the war would hate you. Well, you deserved it, didn't you? Even your father said that he never meant to be with your mom and that it was a mistake. You were a mistake. Your existence was never wanted. You were always unwanted. You just wanted to run away from all of this to a place far away where no one knew you so you can live a low-key, peaceful life. 

Well, that's not a bad idea, is it? 

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