The forsaken (Rainimator book4)

Ciara's sorrow

POV Ciara

hours had passed since Patrick left to go after Charlie, and I was worrying, it was so stupid, how long had I even known these people? a year? maybe more, this was so stupid why do I care about them so much? 

Charlie...he and I, like brother and Sister, he helped me out of being a cold heart killer, he helped me so much, and I love him in a way you can only love a brother and the way Lilith treats him, it makes my blood boil.

"are okay?" Moon asked, looking up from her book. "You've been staring at that unopened book for a while," 

I looked at the book in my hand, with no memory of when I picked it up. '1001 ways to raise a gorf,' Well, even if I didn't read, I wouldn't read this, maybe Elite would like it. "Yeah...I'm fine," I said leaving the library. 

Moon shrugged and went back to her book. 

I kept walking, I should of gone with Charlie, I could make sure he made it out, the fear I could my family again..."Hey, Ciara," Elite said. 

I looked up at him and slammed the book into his chest knocking him to the floor, with an oof he hit the flow and I continued, shortly heard. "GORF BOOK!" being yelled. 

I kept walking until I reached the bar, I walked to the bartender, I didn't even need to ask, he just placed the bottle down and walked away, I use my Kambit and pulled the lid off, starting to drink deeply. 

POV Kane

I was in the bar talking with Maya about how all this has felt, the fact someone took over my mind, Maya was always a great therapist, and we've talked before, then we saw Ciara come in and we stopped. 

Ciara just took a bottle and drank it all. "I'm worried about her, she's been drinking more and more lately," Maya said. 

"I'd noticed, since everything with Crystal started," I explained.  

"Was Crystal close to Ciara?" Maya asked.

"I...When it was just us all around the dreadfort before, they got along fine, then everything with the entity, and I don't know what happened to them," I explained. "She is close to Charlie, the two are pretty much a family," 

"Hmmm," Maya said. "get some people you know are close to her and go to your flat, I'll be down with her in a bit," 

Ciara didn't really have many friends, Charlie, Rain, and Stella, are the three that come to mind but they're all gone, I guess at a stretch, Abigail, Elite and Maya, but Elite and Maya were more work friends so I'm not sure that counts, Lance is close with her. 

abigail...that was always interesting, what many people don't know is exactly how far back we go with Abigail, but that's a story for another day. I couldn't think of anyone from that other universe, then again I don't really like them, no matter what they say I just find it too weird that they know another version of me. 

Although thinking about them I walked straight into one of them, the one that was being held by Crystal, we both ended up on the floor, I rubbed my head and made sure to move my hair back over my scared eye before she could see it. 

"Sorry, I had other things on my mind," I said standing up, I noticed she quickly grabbed an empty needle and put it in her pocket. "Nina right?" 

"Yeah...Kane," Nina said, I must have stared for a moment and just blinked. "Are you alright?" 

"Huh, yeah...it just never occurred to me that you know my name, despite the fact you know other me," I rubbed my head. ask me to solve a problem on the battlefield and I'll have us on the other side in seconds, ask me to work out how this multiverse thing.

I rubbed the back of my neck. "sorry I got something to do," before darting away from her.

POV Ciara

"Lady you've been here 5 minutes and already drunken 6 bottles, I don't think I can give you another one," the bartender said. 

I glared at him. "give me another one," I growled at him.

"no," the bartender said.

I jumped over the table and grabbed him holding my karambit at his neck. "I said give me another one," 

the bartender was frozen in horror when someone's hand landed on my shoulder. "That's enough Ciara," Maya said pulling me back. "Leave the man to his job,"  

I didn't speak just crossed my arms and looked away from her. "Come on Ciara, it's not good for you, come on," Maya said grabbing my head and dragging me out. 

this brought back memories since I was kidnapped, I haven't really done emotion, I was an assassin, and I didn't need them, then I let Charlie in, him, Kane, they are the only family I have, Letting Charlie in opened my emotions, and it's been so strange, I've felt things I never knew I could, at first I thought I was in love with Dex...but I think now that wasn't love. 

Charlie explained to me once, how he know he was in love with Crystal...I remember learning when the two were dating, it made me happy, my brother...that's still weird to say but is too true not to...my brother had found someone he loved. 

Why was she bringing me to Kane's room?

inside the room were Kane, Elite, Lance and Abigail. "Why have I been dragged here?" I asked. 

"Because we worried," Kane said. 

I scoffed. "you never worried before," I said. 

"Ciara of course we cared," Kane argued back. "I risked my life to fight her," he pointed at Abigail. "And him!" then at Lance. 

"Is it bad he's tried to kill half of us?" Lance asked. 

"Well you're over it now," Elite said. 

"yeah...I guess I was only stuck in the body of a gorf for a year of my life....yeah...I'm not over it," Lance said

I sighed. "So what? you're here why? to make me not worrying about my friends stuck in the nether? not to worry that Crystal is too far gone? that someone I care deeply for might kill someone I care about?" I could feel the tears pricking at me. 

'no I won't care, I don't cry, I'm an assassin, a cold-blooded killer, I don't cry,' 

"I don't want any of you around! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yelled. 

"Fine," Kane said. his one visible eye staring out at me. "If you won't accept our help, then fine, come on," Kane said leaving the other's going with him...well except one. her Abigail. 

"Why are you still here?" I asked. 

"I'm not leaving my hurting friend alone," Abigail said. 

I just sat there on Kane's rather uncomfortable sofa for an hour and I started to cry. Abigail took my hand. "Speak to me, Ciara, please," Abigail said. 

"Rember when we first met? what three years ago four?" I asked. "Rember when I told you about what happened to my family?" 

Abi nodded. "yeah, I remember, what the week we meet?" 

I laughed for a moment. "I remember you walk through that door like you'd just lost a fight with a muddy puddle," I joked. 

Abi blushed in embarrassment before smiling. "I remember that day, and I remember what you told me...."   

"Charlie....he's...he is part of my family now, I...I can't lose it again," I started to cry again. Abigail hugged me again. 

"You won't," she ensured me. "and you want to know why?" she asked smiling. "me and him, we were linked, if he was dead I would know," 

I smiled at her as she whipped the tears from my eyes. "Thanks," I said. 

Abigail leaned forward and kissed me. I froze for a moment, 100s of thoughts rushed through my head and the only word that came out of my mouth was. "Wow," 

Abigail laughed. "Come on, let's go get something to eat," she took my hand. "I love you, Ciara," 

"and I love you Abi...I really do,"