Dandelions

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Maya POV

"Why does your boyfriend look suicidal?" George asked as we sat in the great hall reviewing his essay on how to recognize and kill a werewolf. It had been a few weeks since the Sirius Black break-in incident.

"Contaminate wolfsbane tablet with silver metal and hurl it into the werewolf's mouth. What rubbish have you written?" I scratched off his entire paragraph.

"Seriously now, what is wrong with him? He looks like he is going to murder me any second." George unconsciously tapped my thigh in an attempt to gain my attention. Alright! Now I am distracted.

"What are you talking about? He is perfectly fine." I waved at Adrian sitting at the Slytherin table. He was reading his divination textbook. Damn, he looked fine! My handsome hunk. Adrian ignored my greeting and started to talk with Tracey Davis. "Alright, let's get back to your essay. He is busy."

"When was the last time you spoke to him?" George quizzed.

I tried to recollect. "Three days ago. He told me he was busy so I am giving him his space. What is a chicken dance? How will that help identify a werewolf? I don't get it." I scratched my head. Did it involve the use of chicken as bait?

"Three days ago? Did you break up or something?" I could sense the hope in George's voice.

"No! He is very busy. That's all there is to it!" I snapped.

"I have seen the guy practice Quidditch in the library to be around you. He spends every free second stuck to your body like a leech and more than half of that shoved inside of you. Oh boy, the death glare is back. He does not look happy."

"I would know if he is upset."

"Yeah right! Speaking from my past experience, unless I start yelling my lungs out, you have no clue how upset I am. Not even an inkling. Go talk to him!"

"Fine!" I tossed his essay in his hand and headed to the Slytherin table.

"Hey Adrian, let's go out for a fly once you are done," I was sure he couldn't resist a couple of laps.

"Sorry, I am busy," He said without looking up from his book for even a second. Maybe George was right. I made a sad pout and turned to leave. I will try again tomorrow.

"Hey, I could accompany you if you like." Cassius Warrington asked hesitantly. Adrian jerked his face toward Cas.

Perfect! " That will be great. Thanks, Cas." I turned around to leave for the second time.

"She is going nowhere with you!" I heard Adrian hiss before I felt an insanely tight grip around my wrist. Before I knew it, I was being dragged out of the great hall. I saw George trace my path with an intense frown. I shot him a thumbs-up to indicate I was fine.

Adrian dragged me to the nearest empty classroom and shut the door behind us.

"Oooh, I like where this is going," I smirked.

"Shut up alright. Just stop!" He yelled tossing my arm back in its position. Maybe George is right. He is pissed.

"I .. Agh ..umm." He stuttered. Then he took a couple of deep breaths to calm himself down before he spoke again. "Who else is on your TO DO list?" He asked calmly.

"I am sorry, what?" I shot back.

"Is it Cas? Who else is on your TO DO list?" He repeated. I was too stunned to speak. "I flew into your dorm on Tuesday morning." He said with an accomplished expression.

"So?" I asked confused.

"Ha! So? Found you in bed wrapped around George Fucking Weasley! So you are sleeping with him." His decibels rose slightly. Oh, now it all makes sense.

"I was sleeping next to him, not with him. I have slept next to him forever. Even spent an awful amount of time in his crib as a baby. Mum said they tried putting me in Fred's crib once and he got his finger stuck in my ear. From that day..."

"Aaarrggghhh!!! And that is supposed to make me feel better? Guess what, it doesn't! So every evening you fuck me and cuddle with him. How is that supposed to make me feel? You never ask me to stay over in your room. Even if I am exhausted and sleepy I am supposed to dress up and leave so that he can sneak in at night and cocoon you. Did you even once think about me? To have you snuggle and sleep with another man after I just made love to you." He questioned angrily.

He does have a point. Why do I keep messing things up? I owe him an apology. George should have warned me about this. Katie had a problem with it too. Am I the reason they broke up? No more cuddling with George! It should be fine, we will get used to it. It had to happen someday, better sooner than later. Focus! First, just apologize to Adrian.

Before I could speak Adrian began to yell again. "Maya, what the fuck is wrong with you? I tell you how I feel and you have zoned out again. George Weasley is the reason you never dated anyone before, isn't it?"

I stopped breathing. I remembered the deep dark hole I had dug for myself by falling in love with George. Adrian had helped me climb out of it.

All of a sudden Adrian's body language changed. It felt like a wave of cruelty overtook his sadness. "It is him, isn't it? It has always been him. Holy crap, Weasley will never make you his girlfriend but you don't mind being his mistress. The only reason you never dated before was so that you could whore your way around the castle and pleasure Weasley at will. For him, you were just a great fuck, not someone he could take home to his mum. Only I was foolish enough to fall for you. I am disgusted with myself. Who else have you seduced during Quidditch matches? Let me guess, Wood, Weasley, maybe multiple Weasleys, Stretton, Davies? With a body like yours, you must have covered a lot of ground right? Or should I say bought down a lot of pants? How many times did you have to sleep with Oliver Wood for him to give you Gryffindor's two prime-time Quidditch slots?"

Never before in my life had I been demeaned to this extent. I didn't want to even look at the stranger I had labeled as my boyfriend. I felt a heaviness in my chest weighing me down. My vision was blurry due to the buildup of tears. It felt like someone had stabbed me in my heart. Words do cut deeper than a knife, believe me, they do. I have to get out of here! 

I felt claustrophobic in a large well ventilated classroom. I pulled off my tie as I struggled to breathe. I could see the hazy outline of the large ornate door of the classroom. I made a dash for it. In the scurry, my little toe rammed into the leg of a wooden bench and I almost tripped. I wept in pain and anguish as I struggled to steady myself.

"Darling I am so sorry. I am truly sorry, I didn't mean any of it. I am not sure what got into me." Adrian had both his arms wrapped around me. I shoved him with a force so high, I couldn't imagine having generated it without a wand. I didn't know where the energy came from but he backed off a couple of feet.

"Stay away!" I managed to utter between sobs. He stood where he was but continued to apologize. "I love you, I really really do, with every cell in my body. I am sorry Maya. Please!" His eyes welled up.

"Please don't talk to me ever again Adrian. We are done." I limped to the door with my bleeding toe. I wiped off my tears in an attempt to steady myself before heading out into the halls. Adrian continued voicing apologies but it didn't matter anymore. Nothing did. 

I turned to face Adrian one last time and spoke in a calmly. "You were my first kiss, you were my first date, you were the first person I have ever touched. You were my first everything, Adrian. And I had hoped for you to be my last as well. How foolish was I?" My grief multiplied a hundred times when I heard my own words, withing seconds regret crept in. "What have I done?" The tears that I had held back came flooding out. "What....have....I done?" I wept into my hands. The blurry image of Adrian falling on his knees was the last I saw of him before I ran out the classroom wailing. Fairytale endings did not exist! I should have known it better than anyone else.