Frame Of Mind (Sapience Series #2)

Chapter 32

"n-nothing" i quickly give him a glance. I don't know what he's doing here, maybe he wants to vent.

we had a moment of silence, I couldn't look at him but he was staring at me for a moment. My heart beats fast because i'm with him.

"why are you here?  shouldn't you be inside because it's your sister's wedding?"
I cut the silence.

"I'm fine here. Why are you here too? Shouldn't you be inside too because this is your best friend's wedding?" he imitated my question.

"I'm also fine here" i slightly chuckled.

I hesitated whether to ask him the things I wanted to ask.  But no voice comes out of my mouth, as if something is blocked.

I let out a heavy sigh "how are you?  and your lover?" I give him a quick look.

He sarcastically chuckled "lover..." he fixed his hair because the wind was blowing it "I don't have a lover"

"Ah" I somehow felt better when he answered.

"but if you're asking how I'm doing, I don't know, skye" I heard him let out a heavy sigh.

i smiled to my self when i heard my name from him, i missed him calling me skye, i missed him.

"what's the problem?" I looked at him, and when our eyes met i immediately looked away.

"i wan't you back, skye" my lips parted at what he said, I looked at him and he was just looking at me, there is sincerity in his eyes.

i was too stunned to speak because of what he said, wasn't he drunk?  but there is no alcohol inside.

"it's hard and complicated to love me agai-"

"I don't care how complicated this gets, i still want you" he said seriously. "why don't you just trust me?  I don't care if it's hard to love you, mahal kita 'e"

"how can you love me after everything i've done" tears are coming to my eyes.

"you left me to give yourself a break, and that's okay i am still willing to love you, skye" he said in his monotone.

"S-shin" no words came out of my mouth, my eyes just kept looking at him.

"skye, can i love you again?  let me understand you, i still want to be the frame of your mind" he faced me and held my hand, i was about to answer but someone has come out.

"Oops sorry, nasira ko ba moment niyo? Bro kanina pa kita hinahanap, wala akong kasama sa loob" Theo smiled as if he was nervous because he already knew what was going to happen next.

"You son of a bitch" shin looked at him as if he was going to kill his friend.

"Uuna na ako ha, sumunod ka na sinichi" theo pointed at shin's face. "Mamaya na ang come back" he laughed before going inside.

"Sige na. Pumasok ka na sa loob papasok na rin ako" i smiled at him.

"You'll not answer my question?" His facial expression change.

"let's meet where we always go before" I said and went inside first, I left him dumbfounded. I even heard him asking where and when but I just laughed at him.

"Saan ka na naman galing?" Avine raised a brow, she was with her boyfriend who was sitting next to her.

"Nagpahangin lang" i smiled and sat next to elle.

"Wala bang hangin dito?" Hideo started to teased me.

"Kaya ka hindi binabalikan 'e" pang aasar ko sa kanya dahilan ng magsalubong ang kanyang kilay.

"Hoy foul! Walang personalan ha" umakto pa itong parang nasasaktan.

azriel came to me and said they were going home. My parents approached Elise for a while to hug her and say goodbye that they were going home.

"How are you, guys?" Elise suddenly appeared at our table, she sat at our table.

"Bakit ka nandito, doon ka na sa asawa mo. Ganyan ka naman" Hideo said and crossed both of his arms over his chest.

"Why did I even invited you, what a shame" elise rolled her eyes. "whoever gets married next, don't invite this man" she pointed at hideo.

"Ang harsh niyo naman masyado palibhasa may mga love life kayo 'e" he grinned.

"Sino ba naman kasing babaeng papatol sayo?" I said.

"Kahit kailan hindi ka na naging mabait sa akin no, skye" i winced at what he said.

"Wag mo akong matawag tawag na skye kukurutin ko ngala-ngala mo" I glared at him.

"Pag si shin pwede pag ako bawal, ang unfair nga naman ng mga tao" he shrugged.

"Bakit si shin ka ba?" I raised a brow.

"Ay shet, anong meron?" Si avine. "Iexplain mo now na"

"Oh no, ano ang ibig sabihin neto?" Si elle. "Hindi pa rin talaga nakakamove on"

Elise was just looking at me with wide smiles, I should not have said anything and just remained silent. They were just looking at me as if they wanted to hear something from me.

"What? Mga itchusera, wala kayong mahuhuta sa akin" inirapan ko sila.

"Iba talaga ang isang akeira skye" si hideo at pumalakpak pa.

shin was at the other table with his friends, it looked like they were talking about something.

days passed, because Elise was married and their house was still under construction, we lived together in the same house. I just let Shin wait first because he messages me time after time.

I think I'm ready, maybe the few years I rested my heart and mind are okay.  Maybe I can love again, maybe I can love him again.

it's okay to choose yourself, it's okay to grow alone, because you can't grow a commitment to someone if you don't grow yourself. But what I realized is that there's nothing wrong with growing with the person you love, there's nothing wrong with taking risks especially if you know it's worth it.

follow what is in your heart, don't let your mind destroy you.

I fixed myself, I just wore high waisted shorts and put on a hoodie because it was cold there.

"You are thinking too deeply" I said, he was just sitting on the sand looking into nothingness and seemed to be deep in thought.