,,Find it you dam it!
Find the f*cking TV remote!
Now!"
,,Stop screaming! You Made her cry with the tone of your voice! Did you tjink about that?!"
,,Made her cry?! She s obviously faking! She s just sitting there like a f*cking tree,crying so someone else would do her job!"
,,Shut the h*ll up! You re not here even an hour a day and you want everything to be perfect!"
,,i want it to be perfect,it should be perfect! Perfect I said!"
,,Well you are not perfect! Nothing is! It neverl will be!"
...It wasn t about me
It was about my 7year old sister.
...They re cruel,man..That child barely is in school.
...And yet I remember clearly being treated the same
..only difference is,there was no one to vouch for me.
..Where s my protective mother who would give me medicine when ai trow up for weeks?
Where s the big sister that would take care of me and teach me how to be a good person?
Where s the perfect friend that always is there,for years,no matter what ,the friend I can always rely on,be the meanest to them and they will still accept me?
Where s the girlfriend that would let me cheat and sexually abuse her and tell her to comit suicide and take it without saying a word?
Where s my protective angel?
Why don t I get one?
Why am I the one who s always left one in the fucking dust?
Why am I always the second option,if I am even one..And yet my option is always someone else?
Why doesn t anyone else gives themselfs up for me like I did for anyone?
Why isn t anyone giving their sanity away for me qhile I did for everyone?..
..I listened to them
To the fight I quoted.
..And I see myself in both of them.
I guess I took their most destructive parts and made them self destructive.
I took his perfectionism..and only applied to me
I need to be perfect
Self destructuve bomb
..I m trying to be better.
Just give me the patience I gave you all
All of you
