Diary of a Villainess

Live your best life as long as you can

I've lost track of time, I kinda got used to the pain of these memories. They keep destroying my mind within seconds. There is no difference between reality and fiction anymore. In the beginning, I was hurting myself in order to distract... I bet it's gonna leave a scar. However, I came to accept it. The stress, fear, pain, and remorse of my victims. It made my hair change and my skin ice cold. Finally... silence. Unbearable yet calming. I'm either dead or safe. Is there even a difference? Once again... I hear her talking to me. "You've repaid for your sins and much more. Now I'll answer your question..." I listen into the silent darkness as the voice explains the unbelievable before I open my eyes and find myself in the middle of ice and snow. Two glowing eyes are watching me as I instinctively grab my left side. Keria is gone... no. I absorbed it somehow. I feel it's energy inside of myself. The glowing eyes come closer. It's a lion mutant. A pure blooded demonic creature. It doesn't feel like a threat. Besides, if my theory is right, I've been laying here for quite a while, and it didn't attack me. "Hey, kittie, your fur is quite effective during those cold times. I'm jealous." The demon approaches me. "Have you stayed by my side while I was unconscious?" As of an answer, the demon cuddles its warm body next to mine. It's a little too friendly... but it feels nice. "Since both of us are lost in the middle of nowhere right now, we should join hands in order to survive, right?" The cat seems to know it needs an ally. So do I. "What should I call you? What about Suzanne?" The demon shows its sharp teeth as a smile. Then we have a deal.

I am inside the casino, finally talking to my family again. They ask about how I got to know Suzy, so we talked a lot while the cat was having lunch. I missed them so much. Especially since I know we'll part ways soon, I'll try to make the most out of our time together. Each and every one of them who taught me how to dance, threw a birthday party for me, played games with me, killed people with me, destroyed the upside world with me. The loyal ones who don't fear fate. My comrades. While thinking about these memories, I don't even realize my tears running down my cheeks. All of them look shocked. "My queen, are you alright?" It's unusual for a demon to cry, but that's not the issue. I'm crying blood. Red tear drops fall on my clothes, and I don't know how to stop it. This is not about me being sad or anything. This is a sign that my energy is slowly fading. I wipe the blood. "I'm good. It's part of a contract I made. Everyone right now, I'm not talking as your queen but as a friend. I need you to listen to what I'm about to say." This... I told Dorian the night before. He was extremely angry at first but accepted it. He told me to trust him. I do. Now, I need all of the members of the demon clan to trust me. Once I finished talking, I looked at the faces of my comrades. They don't give anything away. "Your majesty... no. Roxanne, are you sure about this?" I take a deep breath. "Yes, I am. I understand if you want to decline -" I'm interrupted by one of the players smashing his glass on the table and breaking it. He then takes one of the shards. All of a sudden, the others do the same. Do they want to fight me now? I could take them all. But I'd prefer to talk it out. My eyes widen as I see all of them cutting themselves, collecting the blood and giving me the glass filled with it. "In fact, we were informed of this matter by the king yesterday already. We have already decided. We'll follow you to the end of the world and further if needed." All of them bow deep. Now, this is unexpected. What is this feeling? I guess I am touched? I take the glass and drink it all up. Then, I look at my subordinates. "Thank you, guys. I order you to live your best life until the time has come." And so the day continues with my heart at ease. The pressure has faded.