Deceived Heart

CHAPTER 33

Chapter 33: Amnesia

I stiffened when someone pointed a gun behind me.

Ramdam ko ang biglaang pagkawala ng kulay sa aking mukha.

No one speaks...

No one move.

I tried not to look at my back. Thinking that one of them did fool me.

I didn't know that at this time of my life, I will again question my existence in this world.

Why do we live, anways? Just to be hurt? Endlessly? Continuously? Nonstop?

People are so cruel to the point that they can actually bring you down to lift themselves up.

They will rather try to point or do something into you just to make you feel bad.

And I wonder why people can easily deceive someone close to them...

Pero sa tingin ko ay isa lang ang maaring maging rason niyon.

Inggit.

But I'm also disgusted with myself, for being kind and pure. I always give my trust to the people who don't even deserve to have.

"Shoot me," I declared. Wala akong naramdamang takot dahil sa naisip na mas nakakatakot ang malaman kung sino ang may hawak ng baril at may ganang itutok sa'kin iyon gayong lahat sila rito ay halos ituring ko ng pamilya ko. "If you have the guts to point a gun at my back, I hope you have the guts to shoot me too."

I'm beyond ready though.

I counted for about five seconds, but I felt no pain. And I think, that is the signal I've been waiting for.

Kahit alam kong masasaktan ako ay hinarap ko siya ng buong tapang.

Ang mukha na bumungad sa akin ay mukha ng taong hindi ko kailanman inasahang gagawan ako ng masama. Someone that looks innocent, sweet and bubbly. Someone I would never have thought would hurt me. Bumagsak ang mga balikat ko sa pagkabigo. Halos mapaupo ako kung hindi ko lamang tinatagan ang sarili.

Tears are pouring down her cheecks while still holding the gun, shaking.

It's funny that despite the pain she inflicted on me, I still feel pity for her.

My eyes roamed around. Finding the last person I needed the most. Pero tulad ng mga narito, wala rin.

Wala na akong kasama. I felt lonely. Kahit na kay dami namin dito ay pakiramdam ko ako lang magisa. It's been the same since the beginning. Mula nang mamatay sila Mama at Papa, pakiramdam ko wala na akong kasama. I am lonely in this world full of pain.

In a world full of monsters with a friendly faces.

The 10-A didn't move an inch. Nanonood lang sila, tila gulat sa nangyayari.

"Do you know why your parents died?" Zairis' voice echoed. "Even your little brother?!"

I didn't react. Pinanatili ko ang mukha ko na walang emosyon kahit na alam ko na ang susunod. Kahit na alam ko na ang ibig niyang sabihin.

"It's because of me!" She laughs like a psycho, totally psycho. "Lahat ng ka impyernohang nangyari sa iyo, ako ang dahilan. Ngayon ano ang gagawin mo? Ipapakulong mo ba ako?"

"You're lying." I whispered.

Please, kahit malabo ay sabihin mong nagsisinungaling ka lang... Kasi hindi ko alam kung anong magagawa ko sa 'yo.

"At bakit naman ako magsisinungaling eh nandito na rin naman na tayo?! I was the one who sabotaged the pilot on the plane that Tito Chase was in! Ako ang sumagasa kay Haniel! Because all I want is for you to suffer from pain and sorrow!"