A moment in time

Chapter 31

MILONKE

Can someone please tell me what are the first signs of being a alcoholic cause I might be one,yesterday I finished a whole bottle of wine alone. I felt like I was going mad and my thoughts were suffocating me I needed something to make it all stop and the only thing I had access to was alcohol but I swear if weed was close by I'd have opted for it. I won't lie its scary that I can't even talk myself out of these thoughts I don't know why but everything feels heavy.

I have a business conference to attend today and I feel like a zombie and I'm sure I look like one too.

I search my phone and went to twitter to see what's the latest news on Zwelethu. Apparently his mother got hospitalized after being called to recognize the body. I'm a monster though like there's no other word for this,this is inhuman...he didnt deserve to die that way.

I wipe the tear trail on my cheek switching off my phone and grabbed the bottle of wine on the pedestal opening it,I downed it finishing it up and closed it again. I'm not an alcoholic I just need alchol to make me feel better about some situations. Lol.

I checked the time on my phone and it reported 05:46 am. I tried to call Ndumiso but he didnt answer, after 3 attempts I gave up and played bubble shooter to pass time by.

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I don't know how but eventually I managed to get some sleep and the three hours I slept did nothing but make me even more tired and drained. My whole body needs a relaxing bubble bath.

I got up and made my bed before making my way to run myself a bath,I poured some relaxing salts and soaked myself in the bath. Ndumiso didn't even send a text to acknowledge that he saw my missed call or was too busy to reply but I'm not fucken stressing myself over that anyways its not like I wanna talk to him after what he did...well I don't know what I want cause I am the one who called him.

After feeling a little better and hungrier I got out of the bath and wrapped myself up with a robe.

I made my way to fetch my phone to order food on the room service app. I ordered a cup of black strong espresso along with chocolate cereal while at it I texted Andile to get up and come to my room we need to prepare for this conference. The last thing I want is to be late.

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Andile walked in as I indulged on my breakfast and simultaneously paging through a magazine I found in one of the drawers . I looked at him as he let himself in closing the door behind him.

"Hey girrrrl"

"So we no longer knock apha'ekhaya,we just waltz in like we own the place?" I ask focusing back on the magazine.

He huffs rolling his eyes and walked back out closing the door. I hear the door bell ring.

"KUVULIWE!!(Its open)"I shouted and shortly after he opened the door letting himself in.

"Happy Miss Ndilika?"he asks arching his eyebrow.

I chuckle weakly. " see how easy that was"

He rolled his eyes chuckling softly,as he made his way to sit next to me. "I couldn't sleep yesterday thinking about your outfit for today. I've made up my mind, sweery you can't wear a hijab with that outfit like it won't work at all"

"Well I wasn't planning on wearing any hijab I mean I respect the Islamic culture hence but Im not covering my hair no ways I spent thousands on this hair"

He exhales in relief. "Good. Anyways did you hear the latest good news, apparently they've finally arrested some suspects for Zwelethus murder"

I choked as I swallowed the spoonful of cereal in my mouth.