A moment in time

CHAPTER 39

Its a Friday and this week has to be one of the longest weeks of my life. I guess its only sinking in now that Ndumiso is no longer a part of my life and I can't tell you how many times I have stopped myself from calling him every time I found myself thinking about him. I wont lie I miss him...more than I thought I would. I guess I liked the way he numbed every pain and made everything better cause he literally was the one person who knew what would make me feel better and his arms were my safe space and now that all of that is over,I just cant.

After packing everything of mine in my bags I grabbed them and my car keys before making my way out. I am always the last person in the office for these past few days cause working has become my coping mechanism. If not that then alcohol so I'm trying over here.

I walked out making my way to the my car.

I first drove to the mall to buy a few things for baby Ziso,baby boy is growing and watching him develop into this amazing human being is amazing and he is so loud gosh. After getting his things from ToysRus and Checkers I then proceeded to the parking lot.

I unlock my car and packed the things I had in the boot. As I made my way inside the car I spotted Ndumiso approaching with his hands in his pockets.

"Awusemhle(you looking beautiful)" he compliments with a stupid grin literally examining me up and down.

I rolled my eyes trying so hard not to smile,my cheeks are literally twitching from containing myself from smiling. "So now you following me?"

"We need to talk"

I looked at him with my eyebrow raised. "About what?here to show me the wedding pictures?"

"Come on stop being patty"

"Patty?if you think this is being patty then you haven't seen nothing yet babe"

"Ntwenhle can you please get in my car...please"

"Why Ndumiso?whats there to talk about?"

"Us. please lets just get in the car"

I rolled my eyes locking my car again. I lead the way as he followed behind him.

He unlocked the car and came to open the door for me before getting in on his side.

I buckled my seat belt and he did the same. Before starting the car engine, he turned on the car audio and played Miguel's Adorn. I changed the song to Risky by Elaine. He looked at me and I threw him a deadly gside eye before turning to look out the window

{Cry all you need,just let it bleed

Cry all you need,just let it bleed

I should have taken my first shot

But I thought you were something that you're not

I blame it all on my soft spot

Cause that the only way that I got caught

But that's not the only reason I'm hurt

I know I should've been way more alert

Cared for you more than anything and you hurt me more than anything,and that was a heavy thing}

He came to a halt in Signal hill and lowered his sit exhaling deeply.

I also lowered my sit facing up. we sat in silence.

"Did you ever love me?" I finally ask breaking the silence.

"More than you'll ever know"

"Then why Ndumiso?I dont understand like why?"I turned to look at him.