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Walk with Per

!Tw: Smoking, Talking about underaged smoking.!
If you don't like those things being talked about you can skip this chapter, it's not that important <3 Remember, I warned you :)anyways just know that I am very great full for each of you and I love you <3

School flew by quickly, since we now have only 3 and a quarter hours of school for the last week. The last week of school before we leave. Before i leave. Now that its almost over i kind of blame myself for not enjoying those years of school. I know it seems silly and everything because i think nearly everyone is happy about the thought of finally walking out of the school after hours of studying and learning things that you will never need in the future.

But what if there's no future? What if don't I find a job? And no, i will not go to college since i want to start making music as soon as possible. It's literally my dream.

There i was again, walking to school on a Thursday morning with my headphones on, listening to Marry on a cross while forgetting about all the possibilities that could happen after school. About the good and the bad things.

"You go down just like holy Mary,
Mary on a,
Mary on a cross.
Not just another Bloody Mary,
Mary on a
Mary on a cross"

I mouthed the lyrics, not caring if someone was looking at me. Music helps me to shut down from reality and forget everything thats happening around me. It's like an invisible plaster for wounds that are inside of the body. At least for me.

'Music makes the world a better place' is what I always used to say. First my brothers didn't agree with me but since they also started to listen to music more often they completely changed, well Livio at least. Only like two weeks ago i found out that he also listens to my favorite band ghost even though he doesn't like saying it and to be honest i kinda understand it. If my parents hadn't told me that they have absolutely no problem with me listening to a satanic band its much easier for me to be me. As stupid as it sounds.

I always though that my parents are those types of Christians who always pray to god before meal and go to church every Sunday because they were never at home on a Sunday morning from 9:30 to about 11 o clock but i was wrong. Very wrong.

First, they kinda gave up on praying before each meal since my brothers and I never took it seriously when we were small children. I guess my prenatal just said fuck it at one point and we're fed up with us joking while they had to stay focused and concentrate on the prayer.

Second, they've been on emergency service for about five years every Sunday without telling me. My parents actually never really went to church and their believe in god was only really strong when they were younger. Same to be honest. But once this one part of my life was over i noticed that no matter how much i prayed to god I was the only person who helped me through that time. Including Eli, Niko and Tony of course. But mostly me. No god, no angles, no Jesus, just me, myself and I.

I wouldn't call it something worse than religious disappointment but still. All those things about god and his son, that stand in this book with no meaning to me, and that they are supposed to be such loving and caring people is a fucking lie.

At that point I could only feel the small rocks beneath my shoes. Lost in my own thoughts i bumped into a body.

"Sorry, sorry" I apologized immediately without looking at the person but not even a second later i felt an arm wrapping my waist, pulling me back.

"Not so fast, darling. Where are we going on this beautiful Thursday morning?" A very familiar voice said.

"To school, like you should too." I took off my headphones and looked up, only to meet those grey-blue ish eyes of Per in which i could stare into for ages.