A Cold Start - Anakin x Reader

the [jedi] (k)night

When I had decided to sneak out of the temple to pay my favourite Jazz club here on Coruscant a visit, it was barely even noon which meant I still had a whole day to spend until it was time to fulfill my plan.

Every hour that went by felt like an eternity because I just couldn't wait to get out of here. Studying in the library didn't help me any, neither did meditating nor exercising. My thoughts just wouldn't stop drifting off- either because of my anticipation for tonight, or because I was so frustrated with Anakin and what he had said to me earlier this morning.

I was beyond delighted when it was finally time to have dinner in the canteen. So I went up to the canteen droid, chose one of the three meals that changed daily, and sat down at one of the tables on the side of the room to eat. It wasn't the most delicious food, but it was nutritious and better than anything I had eaten in canned food during my time on the isolated ship. So I appreciated it.

I had finished half the meal already when a voice interrupted my silent eating.

"Y/N, how very good to see you!" It was Obiwan.

"Oh, hello master Kenobi. I didn't hear you coming."

"I apologise, I didn't mean to startle you. But may I?", he held a plate with the same food option I had chosen in his hands and made a gesture to ask if he could sit with me.

"Yes, of course! And enjoy your meal.", I invited him, though I wished he had asked to join me on another day when I hadn't planned to betray him and the council by sneaking out of the temple right after dinner. Oh well.

"Thank you, Y/N. I've been meaning to talk to you since yesterday actually, but I didn't get the chance to. You know how it is. But before anything else, I wanted to congratulate you and Anakin on successfully securing the object and transferring it to our archives. Good job." He looked up from cutting his vegetables into little pieces.

"Uhm... thanks. We really didn't see the attack coming, but it worked out for us in the end, I guess."

"You're humble as always.", he said and I smiled at him shyly. If only he knew about all the troubles around the mission.

"But dare to claim your success! You have become so strong. You can be proud of that, you know?", his speech got more passionate.

"Thank you, Obiwan. You're always so kind to me." I truly was grateful for him and his words. They empowered me, especially in light of the fact that Anakin frequently did his best to do the opposite and crush all my confidence.

Obiwan gave me a smile but it soon faded and instead worry spread over his face.

"Now, why I wanted to talk to you in the first place. I'm really sorry about how things played out in the council meeting last morning..." Now my mood dropped, too.

"I'm sure you understood what Anakin had been meaning to say when he wanted to address the, how he put it, 'padawan situation'. And I would be lying if I told you that I didn't know he had been having these thoughts for a bit now- I knew he was serious about it all- but I had simply hoped that my words had calmed him down a bit. So I, just like you, was very surprised when Anakin brought it up yesterday. And I wish I could have seen it coming, I wish I could have prevented it or at least given you some sort of warning. You see, I'm very sorry that you had to experience this and I hope you are alright." His eyes searched for mine but I quickly looked down at my plate.

It took me a moment to reply.

"I'm alright... And it's definitely not your fault Obiwan and there is nothing you could have done. Luckily- or sadly, I've known about Anakin's feelings towards me for a while now, so it wasn't that big of a surprise..."