A Cold Start - Anakin x Reader

sleep tight

„Do anything for me? You just let me witness you come undone for me. That’s pretty much the greatest gift you could ever give me and I know I’ll be dreaming about that forever.“, Anakin chuckled, but I knew he was absolutely serious about it.

I nuzzled my head into the crook of his neck. The heat of his body seeped into mine as we lay there in the aftermath of our passion. It was as if we had forged a connection that went beyond physical pleasure, and I knew in my heart that we would have this forever.

Anakin's words were still ringing in my ears, and I couldn't help but feel a sense of vulnerability and intimacy between us that I had never experienced before. It was as if we had truly seen each other- Anakin had truly seen me- flaws and all, and he accepted me for who I was. What was I saying? He hadn’t only accepted me, he had made me feel like I was the most desirable person in the galaxy, as if I could have said or done anything and he still would have only wanted me more. And that was truly such a comforting thought. I never would have expected my first sexual experience to make me feel so safe and good about myself (if I had ever even thought it would come to that in the first place).

And now that the first and scariest part of showing myself completely vulnerable was overcome, and although we literally just finished ten minutes ago, I already couldn’t wait to do it all over again and make Anakin feel my love and desire for him as well. I wanted to make him feel what he had made me feel.

But that was for another day. For now, I just wanted to bask in the beautifully calm afterglow of it all.
 
As I lay there lost in my thoughts, Anakin shifted slightly, pulling me closer to him. "Do you feel... overwhelmed now in any way, Y/N? I mean, you once told me you didn’t have any experience, so I’m assuming this was a first for you.." he asked, a hint of concern etched in his voice.

I looked up at him, taking in the way his eyes sparkled in the dim light of his bedside lamp. He was so beautiful.

"I’m perfectly fine. And overwhelmed, yes, but in the best ways possible.", I smiled, my voice barely above a whisper. "I'm just... I don't know. It's like... nothing has really changed and still I feel like I'm seeing you in a whole new light.", I admitted.

Anakin smiled, and his hand trailed down my back in a soothing motion. "I feel the same way.", he whispered. "It's like we've broken through some sort of barrier, you know? Like we're finally being honest with ourselves and each other."

"Yeah. And I'm so grateful that we have this.", I said, "That we can be so vulnerable with each other and still feel safe."

Anakin leaned down to press a gentle kiss to my forehead, his hand still circling my naked back. "You'll always be safe with me." he said, his voice was full of sincerity. "I'll do anything to protect you and make you happy. And I don't just mean that in the sense of what we just did."

I smiled up at him once again, feeling a wave of warmth and love flood through me.

“I know you will, and I’ll do the same for you.”

Anakin's eyes softened, and he pulled me even closer, so that I could feel the steady beat of his heart against my own. Skin on skin, chest to chest, I closed my eyes and tried to memorize the moment, feeling more content and loved than I ever had before. I wished this could last forever. Anakin's arms were like a warm cocoon, protecting me from the outside world and making me feel safe and secure. I could feel his fingers tracing patterns on my skin, his gentle, affectionate touch sending shivers down my spine. I was exhausted and tired from how physically and emotionally consuming the past hour had been, and I knew that I would fall asleep in little to no time with Anakin holding me like this...

“Will you go over to your room, like you said?”, he eventually asked in a quiet voice and my heart felt heavy.

I dreaded to give him the answer and let out a painful sigh.