A Cold Start - Anakin x Reader

I'll remind you

“But it’s, whatever. Wanna hear about what happened on Ondaria now?”

As much as I was dying to know more about what Anakin had to say about me being his only weakness, I didn’t wanna push him. His body language was telling me that it was best to let him continue telling me about the mission. I was super curious about that anyway.

“When I realised you had disappeared I obviously searched the whole palace for you. And on this long journey I stumbled across this little room in the far back of the cellar that had a holo table in it. Imagine what we could have found out about the Queen, if we had found that room earlier! But it doesn’t matter now because it was still very useful in the end. It was pretty much the key to our escape.”, he explained.

“Ohh. I see. You contacted someone on Coruscant!”, I guessed.

“I sent a message, yes. And luckily someone must have played it only minutes later. But to have someone come all the way from Coruscant to help us would have taken forever. So the person who played my message forwarded it to master Plo Koon and his men who just so happened to be close by, on a neighbour planet of Ondaria. And as you know master Plo, they wasted no time to get to us.”

“Wow, we were so lucky! I mean what are the odds?”
And who knew how this mission would have ended if no one had been there to help! Crazy.

“We really were. While Plo Koon received my call for help, I finally sensed your presence behind a door of one of the bedrooms in the west wing of the palace. And, of course, I also saw the guards that were placed in front of it, easily giving away the place they kept you in.”

“Judging by your bruised knuckles and the groans and cries I heard before you broke into my room you took care of those guards.”, I gave Anakin an amused look which he returned.

“Yeah. Not very skilled these guys. But it definitely helped that I had so many guard shifts with them. Still, pretty pathetic how fast I defeated them without my lightsaber. And now you already know the next part of the story, I mean at least until you passed out in my arms.”

“Yep. But what happened then? Didn’t the Queen notice anything? Surely she must have.”, I wondered.

“Oh yeah. She definitely did.” Anakin grinned. “Cause it’s pretty damn hard not to take notice of three clone troops and a jedi storming the palace.”

“Master Plo!”

“That’s right. Let’s just say he served as a fun little distraction while I carried you out of the palace and into the little ship Plo Koon had provided for us.”
I really wished that I had witnessed this. Anakin made it sound so exciting and I simply would have loved to see the Queen’s perplexed face when she saw all the clones and badass master Plo.

“We really need to thank him again when we see him in person!”, I said.

“I agree. He took care of everything on Ondaria. But I’m glad that, in the end, we could make at least a little contribution to the mission as well-” Anakin saw my surprised expression. “Yeah, we did! I nicked a little data carrier from the holo table. The council has already gotten back to me and said that it had lists of secret money transactions and contact information of separatists on it.”

“But Anakin! That’s awesome!” I rose from my pillow and clapped my hands excitedly.

“Okay, okay, Y/N, I know. But you really shouldn’t get all hyped up and move around so much. Your concussion!”, Anakin reminded me in a stricter tone. But I wasn’t impressed by that.

“Pfff, what’s a stupid little concussion against our first actual achievement in, like, ages?!”

All this time I had been worried about what the council would think if we returned to the temple empty handed, and even worse, that we needed outside help and left a big mess for others to clean up behind. But now that Anakin stole the data carrier, we were at least safe from that big lecture by master Windu and the others I had already seen coming.

“Nothing is as important as your health though.”, Anakin said in response to my rhetorical question, not very pleased with my protest.

“Ah ah ah, that’s not very jedi-like of you, Anakin. You, especially as my master, should know that the mission always comes first.”, I teased him, knowing that he never did things the jedi way. Like, ever.

“And you”, he pointed at me, “especially as my padawan, should know that I don’t give a damn about the code.”

“I may have noticed that here or there.”, I laughed and thought about the millions of times, Anakin hadn’t followed the code and instead had done what he thought was the better way of doing things... and of course there were the countless of times he had shown me that he felt attached to me. That was against the code as well.

Anakin put on his signature smirk, but it already faded after a few seconds and was replaced by a more serious expression.

“Will you tell me your side of the story now? You know... who abducted and... abused you.” I could sense the disgust Anakin felt and it sounded as if the last words physically hurt him. He spoke them so quietly.

“I guess I more than owe you that.”, I said. “See, first of all, I wasn’t really abducted...”

And so I went on and told Anakin about how I had followed Kindon and that he had actually tried to give us back our two lightsabers.
“By the way, do you happen to know where they are now?”, I asked Anakin when I got to the lightsaber part.

“Nah. I have no idea.”

“Great.”, I said sarcastically. “Looks like we need new lightsabers. Again.”
Obiwan would be so happy to hear that... At this point it was just embarrassing.

“I know. I’m pretty sure that’s the third time now... But keep going please.”, Anakin said.

I continued telling him the story and how the Queen’s cousin had suddenly stormed into the room and how that ended with him punching me in the face.

“I’m sorry, but I really can’t remember much that has happened leading up to that punch.”, I apologized, knowing that Anakin always wanted to know all the details.

“Hey, don’t be sorry, Y/N! I’m really so thankful your memory is working at all! Everything could have been so so much worse... I mean, not that the situation isn’t horrible enough as it is.”, he said, struggling to find the right words.

And suddenly I realised he was right. Everything could have been so much worse. And I wasn’t specifically thinking of physical abuse and memory loss like Anakin was, but of the situation as a whole.

I was reminded again of how I had felt when I came back to my senses in the bedroom. Suddenly, all these intense feelings from then caught up again with me now.
I remembered how scared I had been- of the outcome of our mission, but even more importantly how scared I’d been of what would happen to Anakin. In my panicked thoughts I had even feared that I would never see him again. The prospect of that had been absolutely unbearable for me. And only then had I realised how I truly felt about him and that Anakin had been right all along - it was a total waste of time and potential, always fighting my own feelings and pushing him away from me when I knew he would keep his promise and give me anything I needed and more.

But the idea of endless love and pleasure seemed scary, too. The whole concept was just so foreign to me. And the frustrating part was that I usually wasn’t even afraid of the unknown, (or else I probably wouldn’t be a jedi), but with Anakin it was a whole other story. Would I figure it out?

“Y/N..? Are you okay? Do you need anything?”, Anakin’s voice brought me back to reality. He must have seen my frown.

Immediately, the muscles in my forehead relaxed. Because the reality he brought me back to was a good one. Nothing was lost yet and just seeing Anakin in his plain white shirt, sitting and breathing in the bed next to me and looking at me with his worried blue eyes, proved that to me. He was right there, meters away from me, and he was so beautiful. So warm and kind.

“Thank you, Anakin.”

“What do you mean?”, he smiled but I could still see the worry in his eyes.

“A lot of things actually. Things I’ve never thanked you for. For example that you always trained me hard so I could become a stronger jedi, thank you that you gave me your cloak so that I wouldn’t have to freeze when we were trapped in space and thanks for the million other little things you do and have done for me behind my back. Oh, and I also just realised- I haven’t even said thanks to you yet for rescuing me just yesterday.”, I said, relieved to finally get all these ‘thank yous’ off my chest. It was time.

“It’s your head, Y/N, isn’t it? Should I call a nurse?”, Anakin moved his feet out of the bed and leaned forward, ready to take whatever action there was required to help me. And I couldn’t help but laugh about the fact that he found my ‘thank yous’ so worrying. As if he blamed them on my concussion.

“Anakin, I am fine! More than fine, I promise.”, I looked deeply into his eyes to make it clear I wasn’t kidding. “But will you allow me this one thing?”

“Anything, what is it?” It was obvious that Anakin wasn’t convinced of my well being yet.

“When I was tied up alone in that bedroom inside the palace, all I could think about was you and how much I wanted to see you and feel you by my side. Please, can I give you a hug or something? Just to remind myself that you are here with me now, that this is real and we are safe.”

“Oh, Y/N, C’mere.”
Anakin, who sat on the edge of his bed, opened his arms for me and and I couldn't jump up from my bed fast enough to close the gap between us and fall into his inviting arms. It was as if my life depended on that one embrace and the deep longing inside of me was only satisfied when I finally wrapped my arms tightly around his neck. Anakin immediately got up from the bed to pull me even closer to him by my waist, before his flesh hand buried itself in my hair and pressed my head against him.
Mhm, his delicious scent immediately enveloped me. Like a drug it sent me into a state of pure bliss and I inhaled it like an addict.

“Thank you.”, I mumbled into his warm chest, my fingers clawed into his broad back.

“By the way you’re holding onto me I’m having a hard time not to believe your dizzy head is the cause for this.”, Anakin softly spoke into my ear and I could hear the smile on his lips as he said it.

“It’s not my dizzy head, I promise. It’s my heart that made me wanna hug you so badly.”, I replied, still not breaking the embrace.

“Do you believe that this is real now? That I’m right here?” His hand stroked up and down my back.

“Yes. I mean no. I don’t know.”
Could this be real? It was just too perfect for that.

“I guess I’ll have to hold you for a little longer then to help you find the answer. And if that doesn’t do the trick, I could think of plenty other ways to remind you that I’m here. That this is real.”

A/N: hey :)

Looks like we're finally getting somewhere.

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