Attention What If

Chapter 12

POV: Darleen

I had a strange flashback moment when I woke up in the morning. Skylar was laying cuddled up next to me. Her head resting on my chest. It was like I was back in high school and we were dating. She used to lay just like this with me.

What is with me lately?

All I can think about is her.

I keep telling myself not this again. That the ship has sailed. That it will never happen. But no matter how much I argue with myself, I can't deny the way she makes me feel inside. I never could. There is just something about her. Something that makes her different from all the other girls.

She's always stood out to me.

The fact that she tries so hard at everything she does just to make everyone happy. The fact that she refuses to be the stand-out person. She likes being the background girl, she likes just watching other people be happy. She's so... I can't even describe it. So Skylar I guess.

Part of me feels like I am setting myself up for failure and heartbreak all over again. Like no matter what I do or say, she's over me. She doesn't see me like that. She'll never see me like that.

But what if there is a chance?

What if...

Stop it. Get a grip Darleen. Don't do this again. She just got out of a long-term relationship with the girl she thought was her true love. Give me a break, I'll be lucky if she even gives me a second glance. I can't live up to those expectations no matter what Jade says.

Not to mention that Vida girl.

She and Skylar have some type of bond. She loves Skylar and maybe... maybe Skylar likes her back. If that's the case then I've already lost before the battle has even begun. Why? Why do I have to keep falling for this girl? The girl whose heart has already been spoken for twice over.

I sigh and turn my body to nuzzle closer to Skylar.

I wish I could stay like this forever.

Skylar mumbles in her sleep and cuddles closer to me.

I smile and wrap my arms around her.

She sighs in content.

Is it bad that I don't even feel guilty for being all cuddled up with another girl? That I haven't even thought about Lexi twice since I came to see Skylar? That I would gladly make love to Skylar if she let me? I wouldn't even give it a second thought.

Does that make me a bad person?

I kiss Skylar on the head and close my eyes to try and fall back asleep.

Sadly I have a plane to catch and Skylar needs to get to class. So even though I would gladly lay here with her all day, I can't.

"Wifey," I lightly shake her.

She jolts awake and takes a few quick breaths. She must have been having a nightmare.

"Hey," I say.

When her eyes meet mine, she sighs in relief and relaxes in my arms once more.

"You okay?" I ask.

She nods.

"Morning sleepy head," I smile.

"Morning." She gives me a sleepy smile back.

"So, what new thing are you going to try today?" I ask.

She thinks about it for a second before she says, "art."

"Yeah?"

"I think I'll try painting today."