All the Way 2.0 (Kylo Ren x Reader) - New and improved

Training

Ever since moving out of your family home, you had stopped having many personal belongings. While studying medicine in university, you'd lived in a small student accommodation flat and after graduation and residency work, you'd given almost everything away before joining the First Order. Now, all that remained where two small boxes of personal belongings. It was all you owned that wasn't First Order issued. All that you had brought from Chirna, your home planet. It didn't bother you. It made traveling easier and you didn't need many personal things but you did have to admit that it looked a bit sad. Your whole life could be fit into two boxes, three theoretically, if your body should suddenly be in need of a coffin.

Disregarding the macabre thought of your early passing, you took the long and slim box over your shoulder with the strap attached to it and carried the other one by hand. Rosie had taken ten trips to move up to her new apartment, you'd only need one. You didn't mind moving out of this place. It'd been your home for a good year, but for most of that time you'd been stationed on different ships or, as a recent development, different rooms on the Supremacy.

It had still served as your safe haven and returning had given you a moment to relax and recover before the next mission, but that time was over now. It was time to move on. Up to the Supreme Leader's personal med bay and into the tiny bedroom right next to it. It was certainly a downgrade size wise, but not equipment wise and, apart from that, the entirety of his med-bay was going to be your de facto office. Who needed a big bedroom when you had your personal dream med-bay right in front of it. It was also nicer, cosier, and the mattress was of a higher quality.

You'd already helped Rosie move earlier and it'd taken the two of you too long for your taste, so you were glad that you were finally done with moving. You placed your belongings on the bed and unpacked the smaller box. Inside were two small plants, that didn't need much light, nor a lot of water. They were perfect for someone that was only rarely home and you'd managed to keep them alive for over eight years now. It was perhaps your greatest achievement yet.

There was a small booklet with pictures of you as a child, your home planet and your family. Even when looking at it now, your father seemed distant. Was that how you appeared to everyone else as well? Distant and easily forgotten? For a moment you felt sadness overcome you. You were just background noise in everyone else's life. You were there for moments, maybe even crucial ones where you'd saved someone's life but after that you were gone. But Kylo knew you, Rosie did, Hux did (sadly), so maybe it wasn't quite as bad with people that interacted with you more often. You also remembered your father, you remembered what he meant to you, what he had taught you and the interactions you'd had with him. You just couldn't picture the way he looked; he was just a shape.

Even now, as you continued to look at the picture in your hand, he blended into the background. He was there, but not quite and the longer you focused on it, the worse it got until he could have been anyone holding your hand. No longer your father, just a man, a stranger and in the end nothing more than a shadow.

You put the picture down and closed the booklet. It creeped you out. You took the stuffed animal that you had brought with you and put it by your pillow. It was a small vornskr that your grandmother had sewn for you as a child. This was the fourth iteration, the other ones you'd lost frequently as a child and this one she'd gifted you on the day you'd moved out. It was still soft and looked nothing like a real vornskr. 'Tooth 4.0' had big friendly eyes, large soft ears and a fluffy tail. The paws were big without any claws and he looked friendly, not threatening. You patted his head, picturing how terrifying the real version was compared to the comical stuffed animal you'd had for a long time.

The plants, the vornskr, the other box and a small polished black stone were all of your physical personal belongings. You had a great number of digital books and notes you'd taken during med school, but those only took up space on your data pad. You put the big box underneath your bed for the moment, grabbed the stone and let yourself fall backwards onto the mattress.