Hardest love 2

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Avery's POV

I spend so much time in this house it was actually crazy. Ever since I quit my job at Netflix, I spend my days fixing my mom's house, or my house, Lando's house actually.

Millie kept me up to date with things that happened in the paddock or she did for a while atleast.
She told me she was dating Lando now so she had to quit being his PR manager. She worked for Ferrari now.
I had to admit that it kinda hurt to hear that Lando replaced me with Millie.
He was still texting me, but it wasn't fair. He was dating Millie, he shouldn't be texting me.

My doorbell shook me out of my thoughts. I didn't expect anyone, no one really visited me.
I walked to the door and opened it quickly. My heart stopped for a second. "What are you doing here?" He was the last person I expected to be here.
"I thought you would invite me to your barbecue but it's taking a long time" Lando said with a smile on his face.
He actually made me chuckle a little.
"Your invite got lost in the mail" he shook his head laughing. "Can I come in?" I nodded as I let him in. It felt so weird to see him again.
He looked good though. He didn't look as tired as he normally did.
"You actually did a great job, have you finished the garden as well?" I nodded as we walked to the garden.
We both sat down together, just like our last evening. I had to admit that I missed him.

"Why did you leave?" He broke the silence. There it was, the question I was avoiding but I had to explain this to him. He deserved that.
"I found out who my dad is" I said. He looked at me, he probably wanted to figure out if it was a good or bad thing. It was a horrible thing. "Really? Is that why you left?" He probably still didn't understand it. "No that's why I didn't come back" It probably didn't make sense but I couldn't explain everything to him.
I was too ashamed, too embarrassed.
"So you're never coming back?" I honestly didn't really want to but I had no choice. My only experience was in the paddock and with interviews.
"I don't know if I can, I don't know if I'm strong enough" I looked at the grass. I don't know if I could face my boss again.
"But do you want to?" It was a question I never asked myself but I nodded. I wanted to come back, I felt home there.
I felt home in Lando's arms, his kisses. I knew he could protect me.
"Then you should come back, I definitely miss you" he put his hand under my chin to make me look at him.
Oh how I missed him, his touches. His eyes looked at me. I looked at his lips, those damn lips.

His hand moved from my chin to my cheek, he rubbed my cheek with his finger. His head moved closer to mine and before I knew it, our lips were touching each other.
For a moment I forgot everything and felt the butterflies again. His taste was so familiar, he still had the same chewing gum.
His hand moved to my hair as he deepened the kiss.
But then I remembered he was dating someone else, he was dating Millie and he was kissing me.
I quickly back away.
He looked at me confused, why was he confused? Did he also kiss other girls while we were dating?
"What's wrong?" He asked as he licked his lips. "We shouldn't, it's so wrong" I quickly got up and brushed my fingers through my hair.
He got up as he frowned. "Why? Fuck Avery, I miss you, I wanna be with you" he grabbed my arm.
I looked at him and at his hand. He understood what I meant because he quickly took his hand back.
"You should go Lando" I didn't even wanna look at him because I actually didn't want him to go.
He just sighed as he walked out.

I looked at him, he was definitely the love of my life. I felt things with him that I couldn't explain but we met at the wrong time and he replaced me with my best friend.
Or someone who used to be my best friend atleast.