Hardest love 2

12.

Avery's POV

We flew to Jeddah for the next race, which hopefully would be better than the previous one. It was a terrible one for Mclaren and I knew Lando was frustrated about it.
The practices were already done and it was time for quali.

Lori was walking next to me. "So Lando asked me how our girlsnight was" she said as she looked at me. She was obviously waiting for an explanation.
"And what did you say?" I looked back at her. She just shrugged her shoulders. "Avery honestly I didn't know what he was talking about. I'm sorry but I couldn't lie for you" Fuck that's why he asked if I had a fun time with them. He knew I was lying but he didn't say anything. He would kill me if he knew where I was. Why was I being so stupid?
"Where were you?" she looked at me but I would never tell. Not to her, not to anyone.
"Just trying to set up a surprise for Lando" I smiled a little. Oh it definitely would be a surprise for him.

I looked at the Mclaren hospitality. Lando went to the track early, he probably wanted to talk to his mechanics and engineers.
"Avery can I talk to you?" A hand rested on my back. I quickly turned around. It was Charles. "Yeah sure what's wrong?" I looked in his eyes. Those eyes who used to look at me with lust and passion. They still did though.
"I wanted to ask if you were busy tonight?" He whispered a little.
"Charles we can't do this okay?" I quickly said as I looked around. He looked confused. "Why not?" I rolled my eyes at his question.
"Because I am dating Lando and I don't wanna think about you. He loves me, he wants to give me the world" and I didn't want to think about Charles when having sex with Lando. That was honestly the worst. "And you? Do you love him?" He raised his eyebrow a little. He was so sure about himself.
"Yes I do love him" I said as I wanted to walk away but he grabbed my arm.
"C'mon Avery don't lie to yourself" I pulled my arm back and looked him straight in the eyes. "I am not lying, I really do love him" I turned back around and I saw Lando standing outside of his hospitality. He just looked at me. He looked disappointed or hurt. I couldn't really tell.
He probably saw the whole thing. I wish I could go to him but I was already too late.

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Alexis and I were watching the quali together. Lando had a horrible qualifying, he hit the wall during Q1 and couldn't continue.
"That's a rare mistake for Lando" Alexis said as she looked at the tv screen. I nodded. It was definitely weird.
I felt so bad, even more so because Oscar got into Q3. He will hate that.
"Can you please do the interview with Lando?" I looked at Alexis, she frowned a little but she probably understood why.
I didn't want to cause arguments because I asked the wrong questions or whatever. We weren't in a great place to begin with.

Alexis and I did the interviews with pretty much anyone except for Lando. He didn't turn up. It wasn't like him to skip the interviews, Charlotte would never allow that either.
After a while he finally decided to turn up. He didn't look too great, I felt bad.
He frowned as he saw that Alexis was doing the interview. "Don't you wanna talk to me anymore?" He looked at me. I rolled my eyes. "Yes of course I do but I thought you would be mad" he shrugged his shoulders.
"Do I have a reason to be mad?" He looked at me, Alexis must feel pretty uncomfortable right now. "No you don't" I lied. He had a reason to be mad but he just didn't know.
"Then I am not mad" he smiled a little but it was definitely a fake smile.

After the interview, he leaned over the barrier. "We need to talk" he said. I agreed. We really needed to talk.