Hardest love 2

17.

Avery's POV

Lando was being weird, he was acting different. Did he suspect something?
I tried to act as normal as possible but he probably didn't believe me.
I felt bad, so bad but who could reject Charles? I don't think anyone can. He's so cute and handsome but honestly so is Lando. He's been amazing to me. He helped me to buy my mom's house, he's been so supportive and caring.
I don't want to lose him. It was breaking my heart but I was sure it was breaking him even more.

We spend the day together yesterday and it was amazing. I felt comfortable around him, I could be myself and I knew he wouldn't judge me.
But then there was Charles, I didn't feel as comfortable around him, I felt a little nervous even. He made me nervous. His touches made me weak and they also turned me in a cheater. Something Lando didn't deserve at all.

I was sitting outside the media center, Australia was gorgeous. I remember the first time we were here. Lando made it absolutely unforgettable.
"Hi you" Charles said as he leaned on the table. I leaned a little back in my chair. "Hi Charles" I quickly said. What was he doing?
"So are you free tonight?" He winked as he leaned even closer. "Charles, Lando is definitely suspecting something. I can't leave again" he rolled his eyes and sighed. "You just have to tell him. You can't lead him on like that" I closed my laptop and got up.
"I know that Charles, but what do you have to offer me?" My question was quite unexpected, also to me. "Great sex? You should know that by now" he smirked. That damn smirk.
That was all he had to offer. Sex. Lando offered me everything but I guess that still wasn't good enough.

I walked away from Charles, I actually wanted to go to Lando. He was sitting in front of his hospitality and shook his head as soon as he saw me.
He probably saw Charles and I together. We both tried to act like nothing happened but his face showed how done he was with it.
He gestured me to follow him, so we both walked to his drivers room.
He closed the door behind him and leaned against the door.

His heart broke right in front of me. I saw how his eyes started to turn red and he quickly bit his lip. "I can't go on like this" he softly said. I didn't know what to say, I felt bad, guilty. I was the reason he was feeling like this, I was the reason his heart was breaking but I was so selfish. I didn't want him to leave me, I couldn't live without him.
"Please don't let me go" I walked to him and grabbed his hands. "How many times did you cheat on me?" His voice stumbled a little. I didn't want to answer that question. I didn't even know the answer.
"I promise you, it won't happen again" probably another lie but he saw right through me. He shook his head as he was looking at our hands. "Just like you promised me that nothing happened in the first place? Just like you promised you only loved me?" He looked up at me. I could see the hurt in his eyes. It wasn't fair to keep lying or to keep hurting him.
"I am sorry" it's all I could say. Nothing would make it better.
His thumb rubbed over my hand. He was still so soft even though he knew I cheated on him. "I don't wanna lose you Lando" I said softly. It was selfish, I knew that.
"What do you expect me to do? Just be fine that you go and fuck Charles every once in a while?" He looked up at me. He raised his voice a little. What did I expect him to say honestly?
"You always wanted Charles anyways. Maybe I was the fool to believe you could actually love me"

He was actually wrong, very wrong.
I was attracted to Charles because he was the type I would normally go for. He was my comfort zone.
Lando on the other hand was soft, kind and put me first. I never had someone like that in my life and now I finally had someone who loved me for me, I screwed him over. Multiple times.
He wasn't the fool, I was.